Wanting to get away from an emotionally abusive home and live with my mother
Ive recently turned 17, and my father remarried when I was about 9. For the past 8 years I've tolerated and been scorn from emotional and mental abuse from my father and step mother. When my father gets mad, he flips, its terrifying. The sad part is is that I've gotten so used to it that I just sit there and try to wait for it to pass. My step mother bashes on me; calls me fat, tells me no one will love me, and constantly brings up a sexual assault I had in the eighth grade. When my father gets mad he curses, and screams, slams his fist on the table and waves a fist in my face. He also makes threats to "beat the out of me" and tells me how he's "not scared of this little girl" and that he will "slap that look off my face." I lve in delaware; my mother, whom I wish to reside with lives in Hawaii. My father has custody and when she moved she never notified the court, making it legal abandonment. When I decided I had become tired of this hysterical routine from my father I contacted my mother at school. I had explained to the guidance counselors how my father has also been threatening to sell my car, took my phone and a laptop that I purchased with my own money, and explained how I needed to use their phone to contact mother. Originally my mother wanted me to go to the runaway shelter in dover; in hopes of receiving legal aid. However I told her I wouldn't, that I didn't think it would help the situation, and how even if I wanted to I wouldn't have the means to do so. I realize that I only have 11 more months until I'm 18. However I don't think I can any longer stand the emotional abuse I receive here, as if myself esteem isn't low enough without their help. I've asked my father multiple times to let me live with my mother; and every time all he has to say is "you can live whereever and with whomever you want when youre 18"
I just want to get out of this house, away from them and Delaware, and go live with my mother.