I'm a girl of 17 and I am worried about my intimate parts. I'm too embarrassed to go to a gp in my local health clinic as the past two times I've gone they said I had thrush . But medicine I've had before hasn't helped and I don't want to go back because last time I felt like the gp didn't care and felt ashamed.
I've started more exploring my body and know it is important to be wet before I try to touch myself inside but even when I am well lubricated it still hurts to try even one finger and I have small fingers and even after it still hurts once I've tried. I sometimes get a discharge coming out and have been put on the pill because I had irregular bleeding. However even on the pill I sometimes get really dark browny blood when it is not my time of the month and tend to get tummy pain often.
I have never had sex and the most I have done sexually was have a boyfriend finger me almost 3 years ago and even that was very uncomfortable but I don't think it was as sore as it feels when I try sometimes nowadays. I'm to scared to use tampons when I have a period because the last two times I tried it caused me a lot of pain and even got stuck which was even more painful as I didn't know what to do and I do not have anyone I can talk to about this. I'm seeing someone who I think I may be sexual with one day but I am worried about any vaginal penetration because fingering causes me pain.