He can't make up his mind
In October 2004, I met a guy at university and I haven't been the same person since. I completely adore him and I can't think of anything I wouldn't do for him. He doesn't feel quite as strongly back though.
We have been dating on and off for around a year and it is always him who does the dumping and re-initiating. When we break up, it's because 'we get on too well and it's freaking him out' and when we get back together it's because 'he misses me and can't live without me'.
He is a complete commitment-phobe and seems happiest when we are hanging out, being loved-up but without the girlfriend/boyfriend label. I however would love to be his proper girlfriend again.
Altogether, he has dumped me five times and we are not officially back together at the moment (but casually sleeping together). The first time he broke up with me was to see whether he could get anyone better than me, the second because he did actually find someone better (it didn't last because she was pretty but deadly boring), the final three times because he was freaked out about committing to one person.
My self-esteem is on the decline because of this constant blowing hot and cold, and I never know where I stand. I feel as though he is ashamed of me or that I am inadequate. I am miserable without him, but miserable with him.
Any ideas? :confused: