What is wrong with me am I mad
A few years ago I sent this message down below
I have had a headache for the past 4 weeks I went to see my doctor said it's a typical teen headache and after one more week I got really concered as it started to get worser and worse so I decided I would ask for a ct scan Im 15 years of age by the way and my mom thinks I'm being stupid I had to go to the doctors the first time on my own. So after the 5 weeks I wrote to the doctor asking for a ct scan to be arranged he said I can't do that as I don't thinks its needed but when did he become an expert as a neruologoist what should I do next as it continues to get worse
Now I am 18 I get these headaches again something is growing I have a lump in my head then I have vision trouble weakness in hands however when I don't think about this there's nothing there but when I do I freak out
Last year I thought I had testicular cancer and went to the doctors convinced I had it even when he told me I didn't have it I was still stressed I'm terrified of dying but when I go to the doctors now he looks at me and its like he's thinking you again god help us
He's referred me to a nurologist but that's 6 weeks again what am I doing to I'm just so scared of dying I've already planned my own funeral and go to bed scared as I think I'm not going to wait up has anyone else ever had any of these problems sometimes I think I just want to die now and so I'm going to kill myself but never do as I no that's the coward way out of things and wouldn't help me as they might not be anything wrong
