Lack of money, lack of job, banging my head against a brick wall it seems.
OK, this has been going on for over 6 months now and I need for it to end... ive not done anything and neither has he, but I am finding it very hard to get a job, the last job I had six months ago was temp,they let me go after a month being there.
I have been trying hard to get work, as of yet its not happening,I know it will bit in the meantime..
For the past 6 months my man has been paying for everything,he paid for my side of the familys xmas gifts (made me feel so bad at the time),pays all the bills, pays for the food,everything. He has never complained once about any of this, its me with the problem.
I just feel like I am taking him for granted.. I have become the woman I never wanted to be, I'm a kept woman and I hate it.I want to pay my way, pay half to the bills.. I didn't have the money to buy him a birthday gift this year which killed me, he took it in his stride and said I could treat him when I get work.thats not the point though...
It was my birthday on the 10th this month, and I had been having problems with my laptop for a few months, my birthday came round and he had bought me a new laptop, under different circumstances it would have been fantastic, but it made me feel worse.
Lately he has been a little quiet, not off with me but enough for me to notice, I have asked him if he is all right, he says yes, I know he is stressed about money and it hurts me to see him work 12 hour days and have no money left at the end of the month.
I don't want him to feel like I am with him for the free ride, I love this guy and just want to pay my way too, anyone any suggestions about how to make this easier on us until I find work?
We don't have to watch what we spend as such as we don't go out drinking, we don't take drugs, we only buy essentials (apart from the laptop,I wanted him to take it back at the time as I want him to spend any money he has left on him!)
Sorry about the rant I just feel bad for him right now, and the longer it goes on I can see that it will start to affect us in the long run.