I was married for 21 years to the love of my life, divorced for 5 years, still miss her as as much today, in fact it hurts more. My service dog (beagle) helps a little. When the hurt seems hopeless I have pictures of us and 1 or two of her alone. It always makes me feel better, happy for a while. I understand that loss takes a while, but how long before the hurt will be gone?