I am gay and I kept convincing myself that I am straight... I don't want to be gay
I am 22 year old. I am indian and being an indian and that too gay is a big problem. Its look down upon. I kept convincing myself that I am at least bisexual but I am not. If my family would find out they will be broken down to pieces. I felt like killing myself before telling it to anyone. I just freaking hate myself. I ask to god why I was made this way. Idk what to do at this point. This thought makes me cry every night. I want to kill myself.