Very confused, I need help
Hi everyone, I find myself in a very confusing situation, I was hoping to get some advice here.
I am a 28 year old guy and about 3 years ago, I've met this girl on social media. We started as friend, we talked every single day, shared our deepest secrets with each other and eventually became best friends and now "involved".
This girl lives on the other side of the world so the time zone is exactly the opposite. Sometimes this can be very hard. We tell each other we love each other, and act like every other couples do. We message each other every single day, we've talked on the phone, do video chats. I even have plans to go visit her soon.
The problem is, we are both very busy people, and sometimes it can be very hard for us to communicate with each other. The opposite time zone doesn't really help. When she goes to sleep, I'm awake at work and vice versa. This reason alone has caused us to fight a lot.
I am also very confused because she tells me that she never wants to get married, doesn't want to move out of her city and never wants to have kids. For me, although I am not thinking about those things yet, I do not want them to be completely off the table as well. She tells me that she is firm about these life decisions and will never change her mind.
I know that I love her and she has always been there and supportive of my goals and dreams. But I feel a lot of hurt/pain due to not the difficulty in communications and wanting different things. But I keep ignoring that fact and act as if its not a big deal but every time something remotely like that comes up, I begin to feel hurt and pain.
To make things worse, there is a girl who lives in the same city of me who seems to be genuinely interested in me. She is a very nice girl but I hesitate to see where that goes because I feel guilty as I appear to be in a "committed" relationship already.
I am very confused and not sure to proceed from here. Sorry for this long question but I am in desperate need of advice.