Unsure how to feel about boyfriends action
Hello and thank you for taking the time to read this...
I am a female in my twenties and I have been with the same man for the last year. We have been sexually active and been learning about each others fetishes, kinks, etc. since the six month mark. I moved in five months ago, reminding you this is my most successful relationship I have had so far. I caught him four months ago looking at other women's pictures, I told him it upset me and asked if he wouldn't look at them or at least with out me. My previous relationships used me as property and myself esteem is already low, and he knows this. He told me he wouldn't do it again. Couple of days ago I came home from work and walked in catching him looking on twitter looking at women and masturbating, he says he doesn't do it that often. At first I couldn't help but laugh because that is what I do when I am nervous or upset. Later that day and till now I felt nothing but hurt and betrayed, not knowing what else he has been saying differently about. I have done my best to fill his fantasies even pushing things I rather not do. He won't open any farther so if there is more fetishes and he isn't telling me I don't know how to please him in that way. He says he didn't lie to me... but the remarks he made when we argued bothered me greatly. I will look at porn but there is no male gender involved because no one else of that gender interests me except my man. Last few days all I feel is anger,betrayal,and sadness. I have tend to hover dramatic of things in the past but I wasn't this mad for so long. My question is... Should I leave it be and see what happens...