Ever since I was 13 I have been depressed. But it seems that lately (at least for the past 5 years) I have been falling into a time of indifference annually. I have had all kinds of bad luck since I was 9 but I tried to deal with it on my own and thought I had done a fairly decent job until now. I have this pattern I need to overcome too. When in a relationship I tend to get rid of the guy as soon as "the new" wears off or just when I start to think "wow, he treats me great". I know this all seems to be going in different directions (and it is) but I can't think straight anymore. I have been unemployed for 6 months now (I am looking though) and I keep having this feeling that something in my life needs to change (this is part of the annual thing)and I don't know what it is. Any advice is helpful. Thanks.