Originally Posted by
roxypox
I'm glad you found this thread helpful!
There is nothing you could have done. As sad as that thought and fact is, its the truth. I thought the same thing... hadn't I forgotten his b-day maybe my dad would have held on... had he gotten my letter before he died maybe he would have held on..
I think that when a person comes that far into the process of wanting to die, that they actually follow through and committ suicide... that was there wish, both your uncle and my dad.
It doesn't make it any less sad though. That this was something they wanted. The pain is still there.
But I don't want you to blame yourself for this! Cause there is nothing you could have done about it.
I am very sorry for your pain! I really am. No one should go through what you are going through.
Do you have emidiate family by yourside? It might be helpful for all of you to lean on each other and to try and remember the good times, good sides of him, moments you appreciate.
I started keeping a diary where I write down memories. I find that helpful!
Of course you are still at the beginning of the sorrow and the part where its all still processing.
i'm so sorry for your loss. Know that I am here, as well as other people on AMHD. I have found them to be wonderful and sympathetic people and a great help in sorting out my thoughts.