No worries. I log in every day, so when you post, I'll see it eventually. So check every day.
I'm not in the US, I'm in Canada, so there is a time difference.
Anything you need to talk about, just post it here, I'll do my best to help. I will say right now, counseling (many years after being molested and then raped) helped me a lot. But it's trial and error. You have to find a counselor you can talk to, someone that you can mesh with. It's not always first come first serve when it comes to counselors. Sometimes you do have to shop around, but I'd highly suggest it.
For now, I'm here, the entire site is here, whatever we can do to help, we'll do our best.
One step at a time sweetie, and I don't call you sweetie to be condescending, I call you that because it helped me when people that tried to help called me something other than hey you, or my name, but an endearing term that made me feel safe.
You can talk to me about anything. I won't judge. Fact is, I can't judge, I've been there, done that, and much more, so who am I to judge?
Time for bed though. I'll be back tomorrow.
Take care sweetie. Sleep well, and don't stress. Tomorrow is another day.