I just want to show to my ex that I will be successful and if she had not dumped me, she would've been standing right next to me, not around me.
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I just want to show to my ex that I will be successful and if she had not dumped me, she would've been standing right next to me, not around me.
Yeah... and she'll see that... as long as you do it for yourself, not for her.
As far as the dating issue goes, I think as long as your thinking about your ex and still being sad about them yo uaren't ready to be dating anyone else yet. You don't want to rush into someone and end up worse off in a few months than you are now. I know people who tried that, then when the rebound ends, you find yourself thinking about your original ex and feeling worse than you did. Plus, you might regret the rebound...
Man I really really really hate dreams sometimes... I literally dreamed about my ex the entire night... I know that because I woke up a few times and remembered my dreams vividly, I thought I was getting much better and now I feel like crap all over again... its been 13 days of no contact and I plan on sticking with it still though, arggghhh
I met up with my ex this weekend. It was weird to say the least. I was excited to see him and see how he was doing, but something was off. I think it's the realization that we won't be anything more for each other? I'm glad I got to see him though.
Will be seeing her again tomorrow, my feelings for her aren't as strong.. Because I've realised she isn't someone who will/wasn't there for me, nor did she ever appreciate all the things I done for her.. I've come to terms with the fact, although I am not as upset as I was I am mainly dissapointed.. I guess now when it's ended, I have had a true glimpse at her character... Completely selfish, but yeah I will survive!
And it's been uhhh.. 5 days NC..
Ick.. I'm feeling especially lonely right now.. my friends aren't getting back to me, no one is online, and I can't help but miss my ex and I feel really horrible..
I was told about the rollar coaster coaster emotions that I would go through, but I guess you can't truly know what they're like unless you go through them yourself.. and lately it's been quite low and staying low.. I hate this..
Its tough when you can't get ahold of people and you want to keep yourself busy. I used to find that watching something on TV (especially something that's a comedy/pretty funny) was the next best thing. Laughing helped me to keep my mind off trying to get busy and her...
Then there's always spending time on here talking to people :p
Or picking at your belly button.
.. but be careful. Don't go too deep.
So I've let a day pass by, and I'm still weirded out after meeting up with the ex. I got in pretty late into the city and he came to a party where our mutual friends were. He was quite inebriated. He told me how he had "missed me a little" while I was gone. I replied sarcastically and half-jokingly, "Well, don't I feel special." I reminded him I was there to visit my friend, not him.
Odd thing happened though. He usually projects this proud, egotistical persona around me, but for the first time, he let his guard down (probably because he had a few drinks) and let his vulnerable side show. He mentioned the pressure of juggling school and work, paying his way through school, and helping his family financially by himself. I used to get annoyed and shoot down any arrogant statements or behavior, but this time, I actually wanted to comfort the poor guy. I wanted to tell him that I'd be there for him if he needed someone to lean on and mean it, but I held myself back. I didn't want either of us to get emotionally involved again. He already has enough on his plate while I frankly just cannot commit to anyone right now. He kept paying for everything, too, which made me feel even worse since he's on a budget (I'm not.)
I'm not sure how I feel or how he feels. Nor am I sure of where we stand, but I honestly don't want to think about it anymore. Gyah.
When in doubt, pursue NC. Hence, I guess I'm restarting NC. Lol.
Four weeks of NC tomorrow. I do feel better,but still its almost every day that I wake up and my first thought is of him. I hope those will ends soon.
It does. If not, the potency of the feelings associated with thoughts of him will diminish at the very least. Hang in there! You are doing great!:)Quote:
Originally Posted by kaneda
In a very weird turn of events, after 4 months apart the ex and I saw each other last weekend at his request. He's been trying to call me for weeks but I've been avoiding it. So, last weekend we met up for lunch which turned into an all day event (lunch, shopping, TV, dinner, etc.) He just said how much he missed me and how it was like losing a best friend.
Then, on Monday he asks me to go to dinner. He shows up with a gift for me. The gift was a $400 handbag! Crazy, I know. But whatever, after 4 years together I deserve a parting gift.
So, anyway. Feel fine. It was weird to see him again. It was like going back in a time capsule. We always did get a long well and we still do. The weird part was realizing that my feelings have diminished. While it was fun to hang out and I do truly like him as a person, those "love" feelings just weren't there for me anymore. I saw him through clear eyes and with a clear head. Time does have a way of clearing things up for you.
o.O
Losingit... I thought that "I deserves a parting gift" was by far, one of the funniest things I've read.
The first paragraph, I thought, "oh no..." the dinner line, I thought, "ohhh...:(" then... parting gift. Genius.
Hope this doesn't cloud your head... and hope your ex doesn't get any mixed messages from this.
... hm... I'm due for a parting gift. I want one.
Sneezy, I thought the same thing. After all these "dinner" posts, there is usually only one following statement, and I was about to yell at losingit :)Quote:
Originally Posted by ISneezeFunny
I got a parting gift, sort of... but I had to pay for it :(
Sneezy - haha I know! When I first opened the present, I was like "oh no, I don't know if i should accept this." then I was like "screw it, i earned this!" And I told him that.
It hasn't clouded my head at all. For the first time, I know now what I've been feeling and that is level-headed. It is nice to know that I wasn't just thrown away or anything and while we're no longer together and never ever will be again, we still hold special place in each other's hearts. Ah, memories!
Well, I got to date with a new guy tonight. : ) I think I'll bring my new purse.
Bigbird - Don't worry about me. I'm not crazy... or at least that crazy! I would never get back involved with that drama.
Hah. I got HER a parting gift... mainly because it was right before christmas.. . I didn't get one. Joke's on me I guess.
... hm. Wonder if I can call her to get MY parting/christmas gift.
Not sure if I actually updated this, but I'll update my "I am doing NC" post later. Not much has happened... cept I won. Bwahahha
+1 for Sneezy :)
Good to hear :)Quote:
Originally Posted by losingit77
Glad to hear your doing well :)
Hmmm it was my ex's 21st yesterday, very hard knowing that we had planned to be together that day, but I didn't wish him happy birthday so I'm proud I resisted that urge. Still... difficult day.
So after two weeks of being single, I've got a date for tonight. Oh yeah.
After being single for 6 months and finally got over my ex.. I bump into her on a night out.. she tells me she still loves me.. I end up sleeping with her and then regret it all the next day.. WHAT A GREAT LIFE...
I've had a few drinks tonight, sorry.
:( Eeeek. Sorry, dude. Generally speaking, sleeping with the ex is a big no-no. (Don't I know it... ) Well, have you talked to her since?Quote:
Originally Posted by DazT
2 months after break up..
I've been working out more often... pushing my muscles until they are so sore I can't lift any more weights..
I've been talking to advanced schooling program and I am 100% looking at it.
Anyways, I called my ex-gf's mom the day after the earthquake struck Los Angeles and all the way to parts of San Diego & Las Vegas.. we talked for a bit and she asked me for my sisters' phone which I gave out. But, the mom did say that my ex rarely talks and hangs out with some friends which was it. Her mom also said that my ex has not been dating anyone else; she questions me if I have been dating other girls or if I had a new girlfriend and I told her I have no time for a girlfriend right now.
I also told her that I'm going to be working out and study for a whole year.. When I finish schooling, I'll join the Army next summer and go through training. Then I'll go back to college and study while work.. by then, I'll graduate with a degree and earning money while my ex is wondering for a job.
That's pretty much my whole life after I got banned... LoL
I'm for sure getting a motorcycle and can't wait to blow by my ex's house. Hells yeah
Andrew916:
... definitely with you. With the money I had saved for getting a condo to live together with my ex...
... I bought a gsx-r 750.
... then I sold it, to buy a business, but... ya get my drift.
Hold on to your hats. The cbr rr 1000... repsol..
It's coming.
Yeah man I'm thinking of getting either a ducati or a kawasaki Ninja ZX-14 supersport. That sh*t is race track ready. Can't wait to see her face when tear I down her street. She said I was a bit too "tame". Hahaha thinking back on it, I'm laughing
Ah. Well... I didn't get it to show her off... I just always wanted a bike... but saved up the money instead for y'know... domestication. Good luck with the zx... thing's a beast.
Exactly haha
Sneezy - you liked the bike? I bought an enduro at the beginning of the summer for the trails, but I'm thinking I want to sell it and look into a gsx-r for the 3 hour ride to school and back. Might save a bit on gas :)
Its funny - been about 3 months now, but it seems like forever. Haven't had any contact with her and the bad days pretty much don't exist anymore. There are moments, and more recently more than ever before, but it isn't as bad as it used to be... believe that.
Just recently found myself getting caught up on the situations my mind is creating again, so all those who are going through that now, just learn to deal with it and learn how to understand that they are just things your mind has made up - don't over react or get upset about them since there is no basis behind them and you have no idea if they are true or not. For me, they tend to stick around and keep happening, which is a little bit annoying. I have the images of her being a "slut" (for lack of a better word) and that hurts to think about... just have to keep telling myself that there is no reason to believe that, other than the fact that my mind is going for worst case scenario...
Liked the bike?. I almost cried when I had to sell that sucker.. . I didn't even cry when my dog died when I was little.
As far as... buying the bike to save gas... yeah... granted, the gas mileage is about as twice as much as a regular car... don't be too down if you find yourself filling up as much as you do with a car. Just based on how I rode the sucker... I was getting anywhere from... 30 - 50 mpg.
You have got to be kidding me... I'm on vacation down in newport and guess who I run into?- my ex...
Well my car doesn't get great gas milege - 21ish if I'm lucky on the highway. I'm looking into it, thinking it just might be a fun toy :)
Andrew - Did you say anything to her, or just saw her? What happened?
My car gets around the same... considering the way I drive.
It is a fun toy.. . mm...
I didn't say anything, I just made sure she saw me having fun and laughing with my friend veronica who I'm seriously considering a relationship with. I really wanted the chance to show sam that I'm over her and I have to say that this was quite an opportunity. It was just weird and unbelievable seeing her here. It's a small world isn't it?Quote:
Originally Posted by bigbird213
Well it sounds like your handling it well and not really having any trouble with it. That's good, I think you did well with it and didn't cause any problems which didn't need to be caused. I would caution you from doing anything in spite as it might come back to bite you, but at the same time, you were having fun and that's all that matters. Keep yourself busy, keep having fun - you'll be fine :)
Besides recovering from my ex..
I've been working out about 45mins to one hour/per day (I try to). I did call up my ex's mother to notify that there was an earthquake... just for sake of it =/
Anyways, I'm going to technical school on Aug. 25th and ends 06/29/09..
oh boy~ it's going to go through my ex' b-day, my b-day, lose-v-car day etc.
it's going to be painstaking~
As for getting a car, my mom is being a 8itch about it...
She text me first thing in the morning after that night (it was Wednesday night).. she told me she regretted nothing and that she meant everything she said on Wednesday night. But since Thursday.. she has made no effort to talk to me or make any contact so at the minute we haven't talked since Thursday. BUT, she had a casual boyfriend on Wednesday night and I've been told since that they have broken up.Quote:
Originally Posted by jiltedgirl
She's back in my head again after I thought I had gotten over her.. *sigh*.
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