I think I'm not giving the answer you guys want to hear.
I think basically we all have to live in some illusionary mind set or we would all go insane.
I honestly have never given any deep thought to evolution. I spend more time with my thoughts and my inspirations and so I lean towards that? Where do my thought processes come from? Where do my inspirations come from? Where does my intuition come from? How did I know that? As appose to where did my body come from?
I would certainly be at awed if I could see evidence of evolution such as human remains that are older than apes. Maybe that would get my brain juices moving in another direction.
If you are married, you have to believe that your spouse loves you although that may not be true. Again, living in some form of illusion.
I have answered your questions. I am sorry if you can't comprehend what I am saying.