Originally Posted by plonak
Guys I'm feeling horribly depressed right now...
I'm am studying for the CPA exam and while it's keeping my mind off things, i have to take a break in between things or i'd go nuts, and then i sit there and have nothing really to do.. and i can't stop thinking about him and feeling the lonelyness..
What scares me so bad is this up coming weekend.. it's gonna be the first real weekend without each other, and I always hung out with him.. and im going to have nothing to do.. most of my friends have boyfriends, and they spend time with them on the weekends.. just having that deep lonelyness is so HARD!!!! Im so scared and sad and depressed...
We have been keeping minimal contact, because I'm going to Al-anon meetings for my co-dependancy and i called him yesterday to tell him how it's been going, and i think that was a mistake, because it just drudges up old feelings.. by the time we hung up we decided not to do anymore contact.. he told me to call him when im ready to see him again (not sure if that's gonna happen) and so today i was doing pretty well, and then he called me right when i got off work to ask me a question about something (he needed it for work) and then all the feelings came back again
but as I'm writing this now, im feeling a little better.. it's so hard breaking up with someone, you all must know that.. i feel so much guilt and desperation, and pain just like you that have been dumped.. it's awful!!!
ok venting is over