I am losing my best friend
My best friend and I have been friends for about 10 years, we were like sisters. I moved away, but we were still close, you know like nothing has changed. Then she got engaged to her ex boyfriend. It was out of the blue, but it still was her choice. Well, she failed to tell me about it and I had to hear it from a friend who knows a friend. It hurt me that I didn't hear it from her and I let her know that. I was of course willing to forgive and forget about it, and continue our friendship, but now she hasn't talked to me in over a month! I know that she was scared to tell me about her engagement because she knew I wouldn't approve, and she is right (he is abusive and I have had to save her whenever they got into a fight), but I have told her time and again that it is her choice and I am not going to judge her based on a decision she has made. She is a big girl and can lead her own life, besides I never wanted her to feel afraid or ashamed to tell me about anything. Well, that has obviously happened. I have heard through mutual friends that she is now having problems in her relationship. My first instinct is to say, "I told you so" but that is not what friends do. I have sent her a letter expressing the worries I have concerning OUR friendship, but I haven't heard anything from her. It is really killing me inside, especially how she is going on with her life as though I never existed. Plus there have been a lot of big things happening in my life that I want to share with her, but I can't. I also don't feel right about getting engaged to my boyfriend until I deal with this issue, one way or another (Since an engagement should be a happy occasion, and I am, well, very sad). I guess I am seeking advice on whether I should make another move to try and fix this, or if I should just let it go and see if she contacts me.