I am 12 years old... I have been cutting since this January but it has been getting worse and I'm thinking that if I die no one would notice. Suicide is a clear option yet there is much to lose. I just want to know how to tell her before it gets too bad and I end up doing something stupid.

Walk up to her and show her your scars. Let us know what she does. I bet she will be very upset and get you the help you need.

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Walk up to her and show her your scars. Let us know what she does. I bet she will be very upset and get you the help you need.

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I thought of that but I think she will get mad at me.. I told her in February I stopped because I was scared of what she would do.

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i thought of that but i think she will get mad at me.. i told her in february i stopped because i was scared of what she would do.

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What do you think she's going to do?

Why do you think you can't tell her? If you were my daughter, I would hold you tight and get help for you.

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Why do you think you can't tell her? If you were my daughter, I would hold you tight and get help for you.

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Well I don't know. Also I'm a guy. I should have mentioned that

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What do you think she's going to do?

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I have absolutely no idea. I just think she may be mad

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i have absolutely no idea. i just think she may be mad

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Was she mad when you talked to her about it earlier this year? Mad mad or scared mad?

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i have absolutely no idea. i just think she may be mad

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She may be upset because she wants you to ask her for help. Is your dad around?

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Was she mad when you talked to her about it earlier this year? Mad mad or scared mad?

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She wasn't mad in February but she might be if I tell her because she'd know I lied when I said I stopped.

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She may be upset because she wants you to ask her for help. Is your dad around?

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I don't talk to my dad about things whatsoever. I mean I love him but.. . I don't know. I just don't speak to him

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i don't talk to my dad about things whatsoever. i mean i love him but . . . idk. i just don't speak to him

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Ok, go show your mom. I doubt she will be mad. Let us know what happens. Another choice is to tell your teacher. We are there to help, too.

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she wasn't mad in february but she might be if i tell her because she'd know i lied when i said i stopped.

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She will be sad and disappointed, not mad, but it might look like mad at first. You need her on your side to know about this so she can get help for you.

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Ok, go show your mom. I doubt she will be mad. Let us know what happens. Another choice is to tell your teacher. We are there to help, too.

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I'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. My heat shut off in my house so my brother and I had to go next door.

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She will be sad and disappointed, not mad, but it might look like mad at first. You need her on your side to know about this so she can get help for you.

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What would help mean?

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i'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. my heat shut off in my house so my brother and i had to go next door.

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Then you need to show her in the morning.

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i'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. my heat shut off in my house so my brother and i had to go next door.

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Will you be okay until morning? We'll be here to hold your hand.

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Then you need to show her in the morning.

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That's what I was thinking. >~<

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Will you be okay until morning? We'll be here to hold your hand.

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I'd like to talk.. I doubt I'll get any sleep in this house.. it's too hot and quiet

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that's what i was thinking. >~<

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Good Good girl! What do you think causes you to cut?

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Good Good girl! What do you think causes you to cut?

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Guy** and I guess it's like a distraction. I blame myself so much it's like a way to take it out on myself

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guy** and i guess it's like a distraction. i blame myself so much it's like a way to take it out on myself

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Sorry about the girl comment. Too often it's girls who do this.

Why take it out on yourself? Are you failing yourself somehow?

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Sorry about the girl comment. Too often it's girls who do this.

Why take it out on yourself? Are you failing yourself somehow?

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It's fine (the girl comment)
And yes. I think that I could be better if I was just stronger but I'm never the strong one... I'm always disappointing others and myself with goals or things I just mess up somehow.

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it's fine (the girl comment)
and yes. i think that i could be better if i was just stronger but i'm never the strong one... i'm always disappointing others and myself with goals or things i just mess up somehow.

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Tell me one good thing about yourself.

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Tell me one good thing about yourself.

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Like.. that I like?

I guess... well.. I have nothing

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like.. that i like?

i guess... well.. i have nothing

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You like to write.

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You like to write.

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I do.. I always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b

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i do..? i always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b

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i do..? i always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b

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You're a good writer here -- clear and good English and thoughtful.

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You're a good writer here -- clear and good English and thoughtful.

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Thanks I guess.

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thanks i guess.

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Art? Drawing? Making things?

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Art? drawing? making things?

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I'm horrible at art. I don't draw (horrible). Making things? Eh. I play music. The alto saxophone.

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i'm horrible at art. i don't draw (horrible). making things? eh. i play music. the alto saxophone.

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Ah, my husband played the alto sax in school band about a thousand years ago. Do you like playing it? Do you take lessons?

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i'm horrible at art. i don't draw (horrible). making things? eh. i play music. the alto saxophone.

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But even my best friend said I'm the worst in the school

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Ah, my husband played the alto sax in school band about a thousand years ago. Do you like playing it? Do you take lessons?

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I play it in school but people say I'm horrible and I suck at it.

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i play it in school but people say i'm horrible and i suck at it.

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Do YOU like to play it? Is there a school band?

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Do YOU like to play it? Is there a school band?

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Yeah. 6th period for about an hour.. I guess I like playing it. I quit keyboarding for it

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yeah. 6th period for about an hour.. i guess i like playing it. i quit keyboarding for it

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I had years of piano lessons. Do you have to replace the reeds now and then? (I always have wondered that.) Why did you switch?

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I had years of piano lessons. Do you have to replace the reeds now and then? (I always have wondered that.) Why did you switch?

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You have to use a different reed every day. And I quit keyboarding because the teacher verbally abused me. She said I would never have a job or a family and I hated the concept of typing I already type good I don't care if I have to look at the keyboard. What right does she have to tell me I am never going to have a life? Ugh.

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you have to use a different reed every day. and i quit keyboarding because the teacher verbally abused me. she said i would never have a job or a family and i hated the concept of typing i already type good i don't care if i have to look at the keyboard. what right does she have to tell me i am never going to have a life? ugh.

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Do you throw away the old reeds, or can you reuse them after cleaning them or something?

There must be something about piano teachers. Mine refused to let me improvise. I had to play the piece exactly as it was written with no variations. I HATED all the classical stuff he gave me to learn. I wanted to play fun stuff and goof around with it. At home when I practiced, I got the same message.