Hi I am 31 years old with a good education but no job.Two nice , healthy kids a very loving husband and good sex life... but I am constantly irritated, angry and always on the edge.
I have tried yoga, past life therapy, gulping down anti-depressants, prayer circles etc... nothing seems to life the cloud of depression and anger from my being... nowadays I just don't feel like talking to anyone , not even my family! My mobile is constantly switched off and I am so pissed off with the whole world and most of all with myself!

I desperately need help... my husband and parents have kind of.. given-up on me... please help me... for the sake of my girls aged 7 and 5! Pleeeeeeese someone help me!

Hi, needhelp kutchs!

So, what are you angry about? Is there one thing that makes you really irritated over anything else?

Thanks!

Ya I am angry about not being able to take decisions for myself on my own.I am angry about making some wrong decisions in my life.I am angry about not using my life constructively... not living it up... not using my talents to the full and now I feel incapable of doing anything about it .I am generally disgusted with myself, my house... just about anything... God knows

What paying or salaried jobs have you had?*

*during the past 15 years (before and during child raising)

I 've worked as a nursery teacher, also as a content writer working from home for a year and a half!

What is your education in?

I do have another question also, and that would be what are some of the things that you feel that you're really good at doing? But, please do address the question that Wondergirl asked first, please.

Thanks!

I have a masters degree in Business Administration done Full time!
I am good at talking to people, organising things, writing , public speaking.. I was good at all this once upon a time!

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I have a masters degree in Business Administration done Full time!
I am good at talking to people, organising things, writing , public speaking .. i was good at all this once upon a time!

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Perfect! Better than I could ever have imagined! (And you still are good at it all... trust me, you are.)

Craig, you want to say something? Or I will jump in.

Do you have any free times during the day, or are you very involved with your kids and their school and being a homemaker?

Part 2 of that is, do you have any free time in the evenings, any evening?

I'm working on it right now!

Common guys ! Speak up

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Originally Posted by needhelp kutchs
I have a masters degree in Business Administration done Full time!
I am good at talking to people, organising things, writing , public speaking.. I was good at all this once upon a time!

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Originally Posted by Wondergirl Perfect! Better than I could ever have imagined! (And you still are good at it all... trust me, you are.)

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Yes, I'm sure also that you're still good at those things!

I sense that a big part of your frustration and anger is that you're not doing the things for which you were educated and trained and also those things that you know you have really good abilities to do. Would that be correct?

Another couple of questions - What sort of things have you written and have you ever written any poetry?

I know that you have a lot of questions coming at you right now! Please do take your time!

Thanks!

I have free time during the day when my kids go to school and I have a full time maid who cooks and cleans as well.
Evenings are not free as my husband has social commitments as an Army Officer wherein I too have to go ; by order!

And don't forget my questions about what free time you have during the day or evening!

No I have never written poetry but did ghost writing for a number of hi-profile people and also wrote for a content writing firm that employes people to write on anything and everything... no poetry ever... no

I told you I have free time in the mornings about 5 hours , but none in the evenings

Wonder girl left... r u still around clough

I'm still here...

I'm not sure that Wondergirl left. It's possible that she might still be "cloaked". I made myself visible as being online when your question appeared because I wanted to make sure that you knew I was still online.

I'm here, have been sprinting into the kitchen to wash dishes.

Would you be available to do something for a few hours several mornings?

Sorry folks!For being rude

I just turned on my "porch light" so you can see me now.

I hate all these Army Wives around who just dress around like manequins and waste their lives gossiping.. I fear I will become like them too

Wondergirl say something... Clough...

May I ask where you live? In what area or country? I'm guessing Canada.

No no far far away... although human maladies are universal... I am in India

Ah. You had spelled "recognizing" with an "s" so I guessed British, and am partially correct. Your husband is stationed in India and you are U.S. citizens? Or you are Indian? (I work with several delightful Indian women, so am just mostly curious.)

How you are is mostly a matter of the choices that you make for the way for you to be. Sometimes it can be hard and take a lot of time to realize that.

Do you have the use of a car? Are you near a village or city? Are you trapped on the Army base? Tell us about that. It will help us understand what you are up against and perhaps what opportunities you have.

You I regret all the wrong choices I made... I am an Indian living in India

Absolituely trapped in the Cantonement

The reason that I asked about writing poetry, is that I'm wondering if you have ample enough outlet for your self-expression artistically, such as in the writing field.

Not being able to express oneself in some sort of artistic way, (there are many, many ways of self-expression and to me, how one does them is truly an art), can cause a person to have anger and resentment built up in inside of themselves because of the lack of being able to self-express.

Please don't mind my Spellings... going crazy you see!

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ya I regret all the wrong choices I made...i am an Indian living in India

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No, not wrong choices. I don't get that feeling. You are in a certain place in your life now, and you (and we?) will figure out how to help you keep all of you intact and happy in that place. (As life goes on, those places change and new opportunities pop up, so you have to stay on top of things to watch for them.)

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ya I regret all the wrong choices I made...i am an Indian living in India

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Being regretful, and I might add, feeling guilty, if that's the case, can hamper a person's ability to move forward into the future with a positive and proactive plan and attitude. It's best not to be letting the past govern our lives in the here and now. We can't undo what has happened in the past but only learn from it and move ever onward and upward with our lives! That too, is a matter of choice...

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Please don't mind my Spellings....going crazy you see!

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Your spelling was perfect--British education.

I think the first thing you have to do is stop kicking yourself.

Promise us, from this moment on, you are going to do your best to think positively.

You have two new friends (both of us very smart and good at problem-solving). We plan to walk you out of your dark tunnel. We have flashlights to guide you out.

How to move forward with my life... Clough that is what I cannot figure out... that is what makes me so angry... and when I see my husband so happy and contended with everything in life... I feel even more frustrated and guilty and sick and angry...