Why. People plan to be rich and happy doesn't mean it will happen. What do you think is wrong with me. I would not tell them that it would jeapordise my future

Let me ask you one thing off topic here...

Tell me what you think of clowns.

Just bear with me.

I find them annoying and frustrating and they hurt my head now that I think of it.

Do you ever see them?

I saw one yesterday. What's this leading to

If you can't be candid with your medical team, then how can you honestly expect to be helped? Last time I looked, there was a difference between psychiatric problems and adolescent head games...

Well said, J_9.

I don't see what, if any, problems are occurring here that a psychologist/psychiatrist team can't handle... and it appears they are already in the picture. With all due respect, I don't see how any of us could be helping any more than that, frankly. How 'bout it, Marshbog?

Yeah I agree - sleep deprivation is not good - can play all sorts of tricks on the mind

I agree - if what you are saying is true - these are serious problems and can only be/ should only be dealt with by professionals. The only way you can get the help and understanding you are looking for is by being honest with the people who are trying to help you. They will only do what is right. By you and by everyone else. That is what they are trained to do.

My obsessions feeds me and fuels me oddly I like it and I do think it is beyond helping now. I don't want help in that area. Generally I don't want help in that area. The doctors know a lot about it I told them that everyone lives to experience what they desire and they can't change my destiny. Generally I'm a nice person and I hope that now you have an insight into some parts of me you will not single me out. Thanks for your time.

there's a side to me that you have seen then there's the side I have been hiding in what seems to be my very own dreams x thanks for the advice I am seeing a psych this Monday.