If he is a sociopath nothing really matters to him... move on without him and find a life for yourself. Sociopaths are great con artists and can convince you of anything.

I think I left him because I thought I quit caring about him. And we never see each other.
Now I realize I do care but I just don't want to be hurt anymore and he's like a stranger to me and I neeed someone who's there for me.
And now I can't think about all the times he hurt me. I wish I could just think about that so I wouldn't hurt as bad now. I just keep thinking of all the times when it really seemed like he did love me and things changed and I think its from not seeing him.
Maybe if I would have just waited a few weeks things would be better.
But he still would get mad every now and then and hurt me.
And he still won't even hold hands with me or anything

You have to realize in any relationship, even the MOST abusive, the woman often tends to remember the past in an idealistic romanticized way. As time goes on they tend to block the negative hurts to a minimal numb.

Run from him and don't look back.

https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/relati...ip-163044.html, This is more of the same, as her other posts.

Talaniman: Thanks for the heads up.

I told him I found someone else. And then he wanted me back and I took him back.
Now I kind of miss talking to the other guy. I swore on everything I would never talk to him again and I wouldn't do this to him again.
Things are going great now
But what should I do?