Ask Me Help Desk - Can't forgive myself.feel like dying

No... not worry of being gay at all. I'm just disgusted with myself that I can't free myself of this. We have recently taken the next step physically.

Well maybe you're thinking of this act so much because of your relationship with your girl friend. There is really nothing to forgive. You had a sexual experience that you don't care to do again and wished you hadn't.
Take my advice , or try it. Write down what you did, how you feel about it and then tell yourself you're sorry about it. If you believe in God ask Him to forgive you for it and then burn the letter and be done with it.

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Originally Posted by _abcd

I'm a 19 year old male, have a wonderful life, and have the greatest girlfriend anyone could ever ask for... yet I can't seem to let go of something I did in the past...it's making me miserable. When I was 14, I had a same-sex experience. I never felt too bad about it. Although I felt disgusted shortly after the incident, I realized I made a mistake and never wished to relive that experience ever again in any way, shape, or form. I never dwelled on it. But now, almost five years down the road, I can't get it out of my mind. I feel terrible and guilty. I think a large part of it has to do with the fact that I have finally found love for the first time in my life. I cannot tell her what I did. It would ruin the perfection between us. But I don't know what I can do to get the incident out of my mind. It has been haunting me for almost a straight month now...ever since I realized that I was actually falling in love with my girlfriend. I have no clue what to do...

You should maybe talk to a counselor or something. Why are you ashamed? Everything happens for a reason, and for some reason you were with another male. It is 2007 its not really a big deal now. If you are afraid to tell her then maybe you shouldn't. Go with your gut instinct. You might feel better if you do though. You never know, she may have had an experience with another girl. Don't be ashamed. You are human. We all do things that we look back and think... what in the hell was I thinking! You are going to be fine,you'll see!