Ken, I'm so glad that you're still around! Are you alone, or is there someone there with you?

Thanks!

I am glad you are too. Thanks for posting today.

I'm sorry you were so depressed. If you got out too soon, it's okay to go back. You can just call them and say that. Like Clough, I'd like to know if someone is with you.

Also, please post tomorrow. I would really like to hear more about how you are doing.

Hi, asking!

I tried to send you a private message, but your mailbox is full! Would you please empty it at least a little bit?

Thanks!

Ken, I am so glad to hear you are okay. At least physically. I too want to be sure someone is with you at all times. If not, I'll take some personal time off to help you through this.

Ken, you know as well as I do that switching medications can cause a "psychosis" such as this. As hard as it is, we have to remember the side effects and not follow through with the feelings they give us.

Feel free to email me anytime you want. I am not asking for unsolicited PMs or emails, Ken has my email already. I'll give you my phone number for you to call should you feel this desperate again. I only say this because I answer my phone 24/7, Ken is a friend, and I am a friend of his. Again, this is NOT asking to take questions or answers off the board, just supporting a friend.

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Ken, I'm so glad that you're still around! Are you alone, or is there someone there with you?

Thanks!

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I am not alone,there are at least 2 of me in here... haha(at least he hasn't lost the sense of humor)

I am at the parents for the duration,thanks though,I wouldn't like to be alone at this time anyway,the girlfriend would spend more time with me if she wasn't too busy either.

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Ken, I am so glad to hear you are okay. At least physically. I too want to be sure someone is with you at all times. If not, I'll take some personal time off to help you through this.

Ken, you know as well as I do that switching medications can cause a "psychosis" such as this. As hard as it is, we have to remember the side effects and not follow through with the feelings they give us.

Feel free to email me anytime you want. I am not asking for unsolicited PMs or emails, Ken has my email already. I'll give you my phone number for you to call should you feel this desperate again. I only say this because i answer my phone 24/7, Ken is a friend, and I am a friend of his. Again, this is NOT asking to take questions or answers off the board, just supporting a friend.

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I am going to the therapist on Tue.but if this keeps up I am going back inpatient before then anyway.

Thanks again for responding, Ken! I can't remember if you have any background in playing a musical instrument or singing.

Do you?

Thanks!

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I am glad you are too. Thanks for posting today.

I'm sorry you were so depressed. If you got out too soon, it's okay to go back. You can just call them and say that. Like Clough, I'd like to know if someone is with you.

Also, please post tomorrow. I would really like to hear more about how you are doing.

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I can't seem to get to sleep, but I do sleep about 6 hours each night(so far)

I am a little delirious(thank god for spell check)Some higher functions(like typing)are slow to return,but I seem OK for now.

I am HIGHLY reactive to caffeine.I have a cup(big one) of coffee and 1/2 of a mountain dew,then it's Propel water for the rest of the day/evenings,I shake uncontrollably even now(9:30 PM),, maybe no more caffeine for me for a while.

I have had many 'episodes' and I am now being treated like a child with no responsibility as to when to take meds and I am OK with this,, for now,sometime I will want those concerns removed,but best for now they are as they are.

I will write back as often as I can, thanks for looking into this thread everyone.

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Thanks again for responding, Ken! I can't remember if you have any background in playing a musical instrument or singing.

Do you?

Thanks!

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I played Violin for some years then Cello for more,but that was quite a while back,doubt I have much of those skills left.

Now, I do remember!

Do you still have the instruments? Do you like to write poetry or lyrics?

Thanks!

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Now, I do remember!

Do you still have the instruments? Do you like to write poetry or lyrics?

Thanks!

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No,no writing or the like,I am more into the woodworking than other arts.

Hi Ken,

Maybe a small do-able wood working project would be cheering? Something non challenging and soothing?

Nice to have you back.

How are you doing today?

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Hi Ken,

Maybe a small do-able wood working project would be cheering? Something non challenging and soothing?

Nice to have you back.

How are you doing today?

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I have been told to try Benedryl for the lack of sleep,it has taken the shakes down to a tolerable level and I hope to sleep tonight(last night wasn't much of a sleep)

Ken, I can't say how glad I am to see you back here. I had Clough calling you almost endlessly, I'm sure he got tired of my PMs. LOL

The benadryl will take the shakes off, but with your meds, I'm not too sure about the sleeping part.

Hey, Ken, Was today any better? Okay if not. Just let us know how you are feeling. Bad depression about the worst thing I know.

I sometimes take benadryl for sleep.

It's very springy here in California. I'm trying to attach a picture of poppies. I've never done this before here... Hope it works.

Thanks for the pics,my property was burned(cleared for the new 'prairie' season) and the new growth is coming up already,rains have given a lot for the plant life lately!!

Today was much like the others,the shakes are settling down thanks to a friend(bi-polar) who had cogentin for the side effects of the meds,I have now taken 1 for the night and hope it does enough for the shakes and then I can get some sleep!! :)

I would love to see the prairie plants coming up. American prairie always seems so romantic to me (not in the love sense). I try to imagine people seeing it for the first time, wading out into it. I didn't know you lived on prairie. Is this tall grass or short grass?

Hope the shakes are better tomorrow.

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I would love to see the prairie plants coming up. American prairie always seems so romantic to me (not in the love sense). I try to imagine people seeing it for the first time, wading out into it. I didn't know you lived on prairie. Is this tall grass or short grass?

Hope the shakes are better tomorrow.

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:eek:You really didn't know??

Yes,we are on 35 acres of sand prairie,surrounded by 1500 acres of nature conservancy(land locked)

We have 250+ identified species and the conservancy has a little more(more diverse lands)

The return of the Badger and Bobcat are just a few things we brag about.

We have been at it since '93.

The shakes are down(thanks to a friend and his cogentin(sp?) but it did allow me to sleep with some semblance of comfort.

Wow! I had no idea. That sounds so beautiful. Bobcats and badgers too!

Congratulations on a half decent night's sleep. I hope things are starting to look up for you. What does it look like outside?

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Wow! I had no idea. That sounds so beautiful. Bobcats and badgers too!

Congratulations on a half decent night's sleep. I hope things are starting to look up for you. What does it look like outside?

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Sorry so long on responding.

I joined a different site(answer bag),it is a more 'social' site and I got very involved in it,almost to an obsession,I am now coming back to earth.

Outside now the plants are growing to almost ankle height(too much rain for the area in the past few weeks, we have standing water in many areas and moss is forming),the birds are moving in to the new birdhouses I installed this spring(17 bluebird boxes,half of them needed replaced) and the early morning birdsong is truly inspiring.

Medication update:After being put on Geodon and Tegratol for a 2 1/2 month time I was removed from them by a new psyche dr.The tegratol lessens the effectiveness of the geodon and now I am going through some serious withdraws from it.This year has been a real roller coaster ride for me.

I have been prescribed a combination I used to be on many years ago but as of yet I am not able to comply with them,the withdraws are too intense.Sleep is sporadic and I am in need of steady sleep,much less the ability to eat(upset system),the change is necessary but not very comfortable.

I am taking 80 mg of Geodon every other day as the withdraw symptoms get too much to handle,sleep for 8 hours and have an OK 24 hours before the symptoms return and it starts over again.The Dr didn't think I would go through withdraws from only a couple of months of use,but I am.Today I am contacting the pharmacy for a lesser dosage of it as I think 80 mg is too much,I have scrips for 40 mg and I can try to use them every other day to ween myself off.I hate self medicating.