I feel bad not doing it for you because you have been there when I was depressed and you have given me great advice and I want to do it for you but I don't think I'm bad enough to get help. And plus I don't deserve help, I have put my family though all of this and Im the last person to deserve help.

Levy, you need help now. It is bad now.

No its not. Im okay and I'm trying the goldfish and tic tacs out I feel like I wouldn't purge as much

I think I am going to treatment within the next few months

No. No "think." No "few months."

Next week. Make an appointment.

But I just started school today and my parents don't even know the severity of it I was going to tell my mom but she's not going to be here anymore.

Who do I even talk to, to make an appointment

At school. Tell a teacher or your guidance counselor.

Where did your mom go?

Umm she's just not going to be around much now
And what do I say I just go up to the office and say I need help..

You have a guidance counselor?

Yes

Why?

You ask to see your guidance counselor and you talk with that person.

What am I supposed to say I throw up and I need help?

Tell him/her you are anorexic and bulimic, don't eat, are starving yourself to death, throw up a lot, take laxatives, and want to be well again.

I don't think they will be able to help will they I mean I'm sure they are just going to call home and they will let my mom take care of it

Tell them your mom can't help you and you need a strong adult to help you.

If I had the school's phone number and your name, I would quickly get help for you. I want you to do this for yourself.

I feel like me doing that just puts a burden on the school to get me help. I don't even think I deserve help people are so much worse than me.

If you are going to start spouting excuses and begin whining, I'm finished with this nonsense -- because that is what it has become. If you won't help yourself, there is nothing more I can do.

Okay

You'll go to your counselor tomorrow?

Yes
I don't know what to expect but I will. Now I'm not saying this as an excuse but you don't think I should wait until after schedule changes and after they get settled in before I throw this on them

Tomorrow.

So I don't wait?

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow what?

Tomorrow. Talk to counselor at school.

Okay

Let me know what happened.

Will do thank you for everything

I'll be here and waiting. :)

Haha okay :)

I talked to the nurse and the Counselor today, I felt like I was going to pass out from not eating so I went to the nurse not expecting to tell them about my eating but I did and so they told the Counselor and she talked to me about my cutting and eating. I will be completely honest I was only eating 5-10 crackers a day for the past couple of days and today I ate my crackers and then my grandma brought over cookies and I gave in I went on a small binge and ate 6 cookies then got scared and purged them up I hadn't purged in almost a week and I forgot how easy it was. I don't want to get back into purging but I'm afraid I am going to. My Counselor said I need to get help but she didn't offer me help. They called my mom about my cutting and left her a voice mail about it. When my mom asked why I was in the office I told her I was light headed I told her they called her about my cutting and she asked to see my wrist I showed her and she didn't care at all. I could have cut a major vein and she could have cared less. I want to get help for my eating but I can guarantee you she wouldn't care and wouldn't pay for it. She claims "If that's what you want to do with your life fine but don't tell me" I don't know how I'm going to get help if she won't pay? She treats my problems as if their burdens on her. I don't know what to do.

And the school nurse and counselor said what?

That I need to stop I'm to pretty to do that and I need help but they didn't get me help.

Call CPS.

What's that?

Try this instead --

National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) 1-800-931-2237

[what am I supposed to say?

Tell them about your eating and about the school counselor and your mom and ask what else you can do to get help.