What is really the problem?

The problem: "I am bad and not worthy of love."

The solution: "When I feel good about myself, everyone else will love me."

How is that a problem it's the truth..

And that is why you need to meet with a therapist for a while, to find out why you feel that way and to help you change that feeling.

I know why I feel that way. I am fine with my eating for now once it gets out of control I will get help.

If it gets out of control

What does "out of control" mean to you?

Purging 15 times a day purging everything you eat. Not wanting to get help once it is really bad. I am eating like right now I am eating kind of a lot but its okay because I know I am going to purge it only because I ate 120 calories already today I can't afford to eat anymore .

Have you already crossed the line so that you refuse to get help?

No I would get help if I really needed it. However the only way I think I would need help is if I was purging 15 times a day. I would accept help if I needed it.

What if you were purging 10 times a day?

Ummm its not good but 15 is a problem. That's when I would get help. Itsd not like I'm purging because I want to I can't help it like right now.

Of course you can help it now. Purging is not normal. Twice a day is a problem.

Why don't I purge?

Because you don't have the same feelings about food. And you don't need to it is bad for others

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Originally Posted by levylane

because you dont have the same feelings about food. and you dont need to it is bad for others

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What feelings about food? How you feel about food is not your problem.

Why don't I need to?

I am disgusted after I eat , I think its so disgusting that I ate that what ever that may be. And you don't need its as simple as that. I don't think anyone should do it. I do it because I don't like the way I look and I feel fat so I need to you don't.

I have realized that I do need help. I purge now 5-6 times a day and I don't want to anymore. I don't know where to go for help.

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Originally Posted by levylane

I have realized that I do need help. I purge now 5-6 times a day and I dont want to anymore. I dont know where to go for help.

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You talk with a trusted teacher at school or your guidance counselor who will figure out how to get help for you.

And you will post her so I can continue to follow your trail?

Ive already talked to a teacher and I don't want to tell them and bring them into this. I would feel bad if they had to deal with this to.

I will continue to post here this has helped me so much.