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Originally Posted by grammadidi

What purpose does it serve for you to not sleep, not eat, be late for school, etc? Why don't you make yourself stay up when you get home from school, do your homework, eat supper, talk to your mom, find something pleasurable to do in the evenings (besides telephone, computer, tv), go to bed around 10 or 10:30 pm and get up the next morning in time for school? Obviously, it won't happen overnight, but if you are dedicated to it, and follow the same basic routine every night for a month, you WILL eat, sleep, drink, perform better at school, etc. like most teens your age.

What is the payoff for NOT doing it?

Hugs, Didi

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I don't have time to myself which is why I never sleep. Sometimes I forget to eat. I'm late for school because even if I just slept a million days I'm still going to be tired if I know its before 8 am. I can't stay up when I'm home from school because I'm too bored and theirs nothing to do but sleep and even if there is I don't feel like doing anything because I'm too tired and if I take a nap, when I wake up I don't think as much about school whereas if I don't take a nap I think more about school all day and sleep makes me forget what day it even is and everything that happened plus I'm really tired. In the evenings, I have nothing to do because I don't have anything. My mom ignores me and acts like she doesn't care when I talk to her. I talk to her on the way home from school everyday for about 20 min. but that's it and she never says anything except "you talk too much." or "can you shut up" she says it like in a joking way but still that's all she says. And I can't go to sleep at the same time every night because it never works out. Sometimes I can't go to sleep that time and sometimes I can't stay up til' that time even if it was like 8 pm. And I can't stand everyday being like that it has to be different every day.

That makes absolutely no sense: "I don't have time to myself" AND "I'm too bored and there's nothing to do but sleep."

What do you mean that you have no time to yourself?

And I know your thinking "she says she doesnt have much time to herself but has nothing to do" well, I need a lot of time to just chill out. I go to school and its 20-30 min their and back which takes an extra hour than if I went to a school near by. Then if I did my homework that would take like 3 hours but I can't do it. I have pets and stuff to take care of and you have to remember I can't stand being in my room and I'm in here about 16 hours a day because I won't leave my room if theirs more than 1 person out their and theirs 4 of us living here and my nephews over a lot and I just the thought of him makes me so damn angry. And I need to quit talking about it now, sorry.

Told you you would think that

Omg I had so much trouble trying to sleep last night. I thought I was going to die. It was miserable and will probably be the same tonight. Theni went to school and it just so happens that I heard this one girl say that she was in the hospital because she was dehydrated and went a few days without eating.

Here's an after-school schedule:

DO NOT NAP!

Have a healthful snack and something nutritious to drink (even just ice water) then do an hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Eat supper and drink a full glass of ice water.

DO NOT NAP!

Wash dishes and put them away.

DO NOT NAP!

Do another hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Take an hour of free time to relax. Deal with the animals.

DO NOT NAP!

Do another hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Get clothes and stuff ready for the next day and finish homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Take a warm bath or shower and get ready for bed.

GO TO BED!

I almost broke up with him today because I just get so mad when I'm at school and well, he made me really mad and then like the second I went up to him in the hallway and was going to it was like I forgot or something and like everything went back to how it was and then after that I couldn't even think about breaking up. But its like IN A WAY IT SEEMS LIKE he wants me to be someone I'm not. He doesn't like me for me. He can't find who he's looking for so he's just going to make someone into that person even though its fake.
Im not saying that's true and I'm not explaining it all exactly right. That's kind of wrong. I don't know how to say what I want to say though

Um, I had to take a smelly school bus (stop and start to pick up or drop off kids) all four years of high school and sit on it for a half hour to 45 minutes each way. I don't feel sorry for you.

If I don't take a nap, I can't do anything and I will actually fall asleep while walking over to get the phone or something.

Only one person makes you mad. No one else has anything to do with it.

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Originally Posted by Wondergirl

That makes absolutely no sense: "I don't have time to myself" AND "I'm too bored and there's nothing to do but sleep."

What do you mean that you have no time to yourself?

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Because it's her computer and the Internet's fault that she has no time to herself! Her computer sends out a magnetic wave that works with attracting flesh, so there's no way for her to get away to have time to herself! It's a co-conspiracy between her computer and the Internet, no doubt! They are the ones who are in charge! :D

Aha!! I totally understand the problem. It happens here too.

Well ii don't fall asleep but it feels like I am. I just feel really relaxed and like I could easily fall asleep and other times like when I go to sleep for the night, I can lay their for hours and not sleep. I'll just start talking to myself after a while and pretend I'm somewhere else. Or plan conversations out that I'm never going to have with people I don't even talk to anymore, sometimes. And this goes on all day. Sometimes I think of my future and if I'm still with him try to imagine what it would be like, where we would live and everything. And its like having an imaginary friend only I'm imagining he's with me every second I'm away from him. So even though he's not their, I talk to him. I know it sounds crazy

And also, weather I'm tired or not I almost always stay up til' at least 11:30. I can't help it. I guess its cause everyone is asleep and it6s quiet. I HATE NOISE!! It makes me so angry. Some is OK but it depends on what it is I guess. And I never leave the house because I cant. I want to so bad but the only place my parents will take me is school. Not even to get new clothes that I'm willing to buy because "they dont have the time" And so after every one goes to sleep its like the only time I have that I enjoy. And I usually just watch t.v even though I hate it. I have satalite and I still think that the only thing I will watch is like king of the hill or the simpsons. Unless I watch animal planet... during the summer I always watched mtv or mtv2 but now I hate it because it brings back memories of my miserable summer

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Originally Posted by Wondergirl

Only one person makes you mad. No one else has anything to do with it.

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Who makes me mad? I'm not mad until 2nd hour with the teacher that grades all stupid and puts us in groups where our desks are so close and I don't have room to move and then the girl I'm stuck with has a staring and loud chewing gum problem. Then I hear him always talking to his friends and this one girl always trying to talk to him and I hate people like that so much.

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Originally Posted by Wondergirl

Here's an after-school schedule:

DO NOT NAP!

Have a healthful snack and something nutritious to drink (even just ice water) then do an hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Eat supper and drink a full glass of ice water.

DO NOT NAP!

Wash dishes and put them away.

DO NOT NAP!

Do another hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Take an hour of free time to relax. Deal with the animals.

DO NOT NAP!

Do another hour of homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Get clothes and stuff ready for the next day and finish homework.

DO NOT NAP!

Take a warm bath or shower and get ready for bed.

GO TO BED!

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Woohoo!! Ten thumbs up for Wondergirl!! Michelle... you need to print this out and make this your schedule for one month... just one month! Then we can reassess to see if it works or not!

Although, I guess you need a weekend schedule, too, huh?

Hugs, Didi

But I actually think I'm going to take a nap now... and another reason is I get so hungry and have to wait forever for dinner and I tell my mom I haven't ate all day and to wake me up for dinner5 but she just lets me sleep. Anyway, I can't stay awake because I'm too hungry to be awake while waiting for food. I actually cry sometimes because I have nothing to eat and according to my mom she thinks we have all kinds of food I could be eating or cooking. I guess she expects me to just wake up one morning and magically know how to cook. And I get called "lazy" cause I donk know how... they think I learned at school but all I learned in that class was how to properly cut out paper snowflakes. Really great for a cooking class. That was in the 10th grade and advanced class. I guess the next level is learning to color in between the lines.

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Originally Posted by Wondergirl

Um, I had to take a smelly school bus (stop and start to pick up or drop off kids) all four years of high school and sit on it for a half hour to 45 minutes each way. I don't feel sorry for you.

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My youngest granddaughter gets picked up by the smelly school bus at 6:40 a.m. to start school at 8:30!! Then she has to take it another hour and a half or so to get home! I don't feel sorry for you, either!

In fact, not only are you lucky to get a drive to school... you are lucky that you have a mom to do it for you - and to joke about how much you talk!!

Get a grip, girl! You have a case of the "Poor Me's"!

How am I lucky for my mom to do it for me? I said I wanted to stay at the school in town but she works out of town so picks me up when she gets off work and sometimes I have to go wait for almost 2 hours with no place to really go other than DQ. So my boyfriend would go with me and we would just hang out or whatever. But my parents sent me their because they were worried about gangs at the school in town. I told them if they sent me to another school I wouldn't talk to anyone or be friends with anyone who tried talking to me. I kept that promise if you don't count my boyfriend.

I don't think you see what its like in my life though. You know when it's a really cold winter day and you just want to sleep and keep warm? Any time theirs clouds in the sky, I think of my room, or school I feel like its one of those days. I guess that's the best to explain it. I love sunny days but theirs never enough. I love being out side but I never have anything to do out their or any place to go. Theis a really cool place by my bf's house though. Don't jump into conclusion... but its out in the woods and it goes back like a mile and theirs all these ponds and stuff. And this trail. Its really hidden and then theirs a vidock or whatever its called that we would climb up on and it was like taller than the trees. I only went up their because he did and I was afraid of him going up their and I'm like reallly afraid of heights. Just the thought of them I can get that thing in my feet like you would get if your standing at the edge of a tall building. I would love to be able to go their all the time, or have a big back yard with my own pond. What I want is to be at home, outside, and where no one can see me and just think or something. That's one thing iv'e always wanted

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Originally Posted by br_hjs

But my parents sent me their because they were worried about gangs at the school in town. i told them if they sent me to another school i wouldnt talk to anyone or be friends with anyone who tried talking to me. I kept that promise if you dont count my bf.

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So you refuse to talk to anyone at school out of spite toward your parents who put you in a that school against your wishes?