Are you asking me 'your' age? :):D:DQuote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
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Are you asking me 'your' age? :):D:DQuote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Stringer, remind me to read it tomorrow, I'm in no shape
To read it tonight. ;)
Are you trying to confuse a drunken girl? :confused:Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
Ok, but it is my second request. That's OK too, it is a little long.Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Well have you tried warm milk and a sleeping pill for the kids :):):rolleyes: ?
I have on occasion (and it was before I married) taken a few liberties.Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Sleeping pills? Hmmmmmm. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
He doesn't like milk. The pills, don't have them.
As for your post, I didn't see the first time you posted it, but I will read it tomorrow,
Promise. Remind me. I'm tipsy.
Stringer, Starby is in a coma.
I probably shouldn't be on here.
I'm not in a good place right now.
Why is life so darn hard?
I should leave. I'm going to regret this.
Love and hugs sweetie.
Going to go warm up some milk. ;)
Go check it now Stringer! :D
Anyway, Alt, only KP can smell desperation, and he uses that to his advantage! ;)
Aww, okay, I'm sure you know what's best... :rolleyes:
Didn't know that about Starb! :eek: Hope she wakes up and gets well soon! What happened?
:)Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
I adore you dear. :)
One thing I know, you would never "take liberties" with me. Not your style. That's why I love you. :)
Even if you were single, you'd be a gentleman.
That's who you are. That's why I adore you. That's my Stringer. :)
Starby knows that we love her and that we would do anything for her that we could. The fact that we keep her in our hearts is a good thing.
A few of us are affected much more, especially those of us that have gone beyond this site and have talked personally and gotten to really know her. We have had several conversations and I feel close to her and I always will.
KP is a sweetie.Quote:
Originally Posted by HelpinHere
KP is a doll.
Take advantage? I don't think so. He's too nice a guy for that.
Starby is dying. That's the reason for the beer tonight.
Really shouldn't be here.
Sorry to bring you all down.
I should leave you all to it.
Thanks, but being a nice guy sometimes means finishing second, I haven't so that indicates that I have a 'streak' of naughty too. But I am always aware of what I feel is right and what is wrong and how far to take something. Screw up... yep I have and probably will many times again.Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
I miss her so much Stringer.Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
I've been thinking about her all day.
I don't know if I can do this again.
I really don't.
Death sucks.
That's really the only way to explain it.
I know that this isn't news, I have been prepared for this, but it's silly, I still had hope. I don't now.
Really, I shouldn't be on line right now.
I'm just not dealing with this very well.
Not at all.
Don't want to burden you all. There's so much going on for everyone else. NM losing her dad. Justy going through all this stuff with her ex. KP and his stuff. I don't like to talk about what's bothering me. I shouldn't be now.
I'm supposed to be the rock, but the rock in crumbling.
I don't like it at all. :(
I'm going to log off guys.
I really don't want to bring you all down.
Please forget this.
Love and hugs. :)
Thank you Helping, much appreciated. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by HelpinHere
You are not bringing us down hon, talking about her and how we feel is a good thing in my opinion. And it helps to get it out, you know that sweet.Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Come on Alt, we all love you, and are here if you need us.
I'll be the new rock. I've basically been conditioned to death, it doesn't affect me, but that's a story for a different, happier time. Until then, know that we don't blame you for breaking down today. It's natural.
And no problem, you're welcome Stringer! ;)
Who said that you were supposed to be the rock? You are strong and that's good but for God's sake hon she is passing and we should talk and help each other... right?Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Alty, come back for a few minutes...
I do know it. But it hurts so much.
I didn't mean to let her in, but I did. Heck, I've let all of you in.
I just wish I could talk to her one last time. I miss her voice. I miss her humor. I miss her.
You know me Stringer. I have a really hard time letting people in, I have my reasons, you know them all. It just hurts that I lowered my wall, and now this.
She doesn't deserve this. We don't either.
Darn tears. My life is better because I knew her, but it would be much better if she lived. It's just not possible.
The only bright side, I've gotten to know her Aunt very well. She's just like Starby, but still, she's not Starby. No one is. No one ever will be.
Really sorry guys. I'm in a mood. A sad one.
I shouldn't be talking about this, I'm supposed to be the plucky comic relief. ;)
I'm here.
HH, Stringer, thanks. :)
I am the rock. That's always been my role. When my parents were dying that was what I had to do, had to be. Everyone around me was falling apart, I couldn't, I had to hold the family together, comfort everyone, be the rock.
I broke down, but never in front of anyone. I broke down at home. Did I ever tell you that I almost gave up? I almost died with them. It was too much. Two people that I love more then anything, both dying, 6 months apart. It was just too much. All on my shoulders.
My son kept me alive. He's the reason I'm here.
I just have to wonder, how much pain can one person take? Why? I think I've had enough of it. Why more? I have to wonder, what did I do? Will it ever stop?
Boy, I'm a major downer tonight.
Really, I'm okay. I always am. I'm just, well, not okay too.
I think that you set yourself standards too high hon. I say again that talking about her is a good thing and we will remember her.
One thing that I remember about her is that she could get pi$$ed and let you know it, but it was funny. Too many times she let us take advantage of her in a comic way. But she liked the role that she played on here and I think that we all helped each other have some good fun.
The sad part is like I mentioned once before, it seems that things have changed somewhat over the last few months. There was a closness that was unique.
Aww, I feel loved you let me in. :D
Anyway, people live, people die. Unfortunately, it's a fact of life. However, you know that with everyone we lose, we gain someone too. You have to know that it all works out in the end. :)
Don't worry about the plucky comic relief. Just read your quote wall, and allow your dirty mind to take over if you need to! ;)
*hugs alty* sometimes the rock needs balance, or it will fall over... thats what we are here for hon. I may not know you well yet, but you can always lean on me if you would like. And I KNOW there are so many people on this board that DO know you VERY well and would say the same thing.
You are a strong person but you or anyone can't take it all upon your shoulders, it is too much.
It hurts, I know, me too. But I have to say that given all that she went through and all that has happened to her, she is going to be at peace and we can't be sorry for that part.
It has changed, another loss. What we had when she was here, we'll never have again.Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
Our duck. Our little duck.
I swear Stringer, I'm going to get my book published, one way or another, and the duck will live on. That's a promise.
When it happens, you'll get a signed copy. So will everyone that knew and loved her. That too is a promise.
It will happen. I'm determined. :)
Thanks Stringer.
I adore you. I hope you know it. You my dear have also found the way to my hard little heart. :)
I think that we need to have another phone conversation, it has been way too long sweet.
Yep and I am looking around in here (your heart) and I have news for you... can you hear me inside here, I'm yelling... this heart is not so hard in here after all... it's kind of mushy.Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Stringer, HH, Jennie, thank you all.
Now I remember why I'm here.
Unless you've been a part of a group like this, you'll never understand.
You all mean so much to me, more then I ever thought.
Thanks.
I'm okay, really I am. Just having a bad day.
My mom would say that my teacups were full, needed to empty them. I'll explain that another day. ;)
Right now my son is asleep and I need to have a cuddle with the man I love. I need to lean on him too, otherwise he'd be unemployed. ;)
Love you all.
I'll be back to normal tomorrow. Please forget my breakdown, I don't like to let people see that, so let's pretend it didn't happen, okay?
I'll be back tomorrow, back to my carrot butt bunny self.
Love and hugs.
Alty. :)
Don't worry, you are allowed to break down. It's part of being human, I think...
That's good that you have your son to fall back upon. Everyone could use a crutch.
Don't worry, you're not being a downer, we're trying to be uppers! :)
Hehe, I only talked to Starb once, but she was really nice from what I gathered.
I'm mushy? :eek:Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
Darnit. You know me too well Stringer.
We will talk again soon. I miss your soothing sexy voice, it has been too long dear.
Tonight, not a good night, I'm hiccuping from crying.
Ya, I'm a girl, I cry. Actually, I usually don't.
Once again, my teacups were full.
Stupid teacups. ;)
What breakdown... "what chyou talkin' 'bout lady?" :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Sleep and hubby will work wonders... I'm calling it a night too. Promised Marta that we would take a long nice walk tomorrow morning early and I am looking forward to that... :):)Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Goodnight all, glad it is Saturday tomorrow...
What, I missed Alty baking cupcakes and hugging kittens? ;)Quote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
You can take as long as you want to be back to normal! Everyone's allowed a breakdown, and none of us blame you for it.
We still have our Alt in one way or another, and we still love you, so just let yourself loose.
What happens in the castle stays in the castle! ;)
Starby is a sweetie. She is passionate, loving, a great friend.Quote:
Originally Posted by HelpinHere
She can make you laugh, smile. She never missed a call. She never backed down.
She's only 45 and she's dying.
But, all her posts are here. Read them, smile, I do. :)
No matter what, it's all worth it. The pain right now, I wouldn't change it, not if it meant not having her be a part of my life.
I'm honored that she's my friend.
Really, cuddle time. I need a hug, I've got a great guy.
Thanks everyone.
I really am going now.
Love you all.
Good night. :)
And thanks again Helping...Quote:
Originally Posted by HelpinHere
Stringer, I'm what Willis was talking about. :pQuote:
Originally Posted by Stringer
Really, going now.
Hugs. :)
AND taking food to the homeless from her own money and time!Quote:
Originally Posted by shazamataz
She's a regular happy helper! ;)
Love and warm milk...Quote:
Originally Posted by Altenweg
Night.
Wait, are we in Vegas? :cool:Quote:
Originally Posted by HelpinHere
Darnit, I keep saying I'm leaving and I'm not.
I'm German, it's ingrained. ;)
Love you all.
Shazzy, I'll send you some cupcakes and kittens. ;)
Night all.
Thanks for being here. :)
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