Of course I remember you Stringer. Sorry that I haven't been cheerful, I just feel utterly defeated today.
I'm the one that takes care of everything around here. R is great, he's a good man, but when it comes to running the house, taking care of the kids and animals, it's all on me. I can't do everything anymore. I can't be everywhere, and all of this stuff going on today just brings all that home. It's been a mountain waiting to fall and bury me, and today is the day it fell.
I'm looking at my 15 year old dog thinking that it's long past time to put him to sleep (not because he peed and pooed in my house, but because he's suffering, he's old, and he isn't enjoying this any more than I am), but I can't afford to.
The kids go back to school on Monday. I have half their school supplies bought, I can't afford the other half. It was Syd's birthday yesterday, I got her a coloring book and a little stuffed hamster. They weren't expensive, but even those two small things were more than we can afford.
I'm tired of being broke all the time, not having enough money to even take my kids to McDonalds as a special treat. What really burns my hide is that it doesn't have to be this way. We could be out of debt if R's sister would just give us our inheritance. She finally finished renovating R's moms house, and she had it on the marked for over 2 months at way above market price. They just took it off the market so now it looks like it will be another year (if we're lucky) before we can even hope to get what is rightfully ours. I say hope because it's not certain that she'll actually do the right and legal thing. She's rich, and she's willing to screw over anyone so she can get richer. In the meantime, I do without as much as I can (including my medication) so that my kids can get a coloring book and a small stuffed animal for their birthday. :(
I just want to curl into a ball and cry my eyes out, but I can't.
Sorry to load this all out here, but I can't keep it bottled up inside anymore. Today is the day that broke me. It's the final straw.