Thank you guys so much. I just don't know anymore. I called one of my old friends we parted but I thought that she should know and she was so rude to me she didn't even let me talk. Then my other friend called but all she cared about was talking about herself. The only true friends I feel I have right now are you and didi.
I am still very angry... my husband keeps trying to send me out for a while. I don't want to go I don't want to have to answer a million questions about her. I don't even like talking about her and it hurts to say she has passed away. My heart just hurts so bad. I am glad she isn't in pain anymore but it really hurts. Every time I think of memories I just cry. My husband thinks that I am depressed... maybe I am but don't I have a right to be? I don't have a good relationship with my mom... and Tammy was like my mother. My mom is making me go back to work tommarow and I just don't know if I am ready. This whole town feels so much different without Tammy in it. I was mad at my aunts because they were over at her house rearanging her stuff and cleaning. Why would they do that? I am just so ANGRY AND HURT!
