I would like to thank all of your comments... some hard to take... I decided that I am not getting what I believe to basic things... I have decided to not call her... focus on my home... cleaning and spring stuff... while doing this... she has texted and called several times all of which I am ignoring. She claims that she has no idea what is going on, or if we are fighting... asking to spend time together... and stating that she believes that she has done nothing wrong. This person will eventually show up at my home. Make tons of promises that I know she will never keep. It will be like last time I am sure... it is so hard when she is with me saying this stuff... as I am so attracted to her and my feelings so strong... but in my heart I just know that this rollercoaster will end with me in a ball on the floor. I can probably already know that some will say to inform her of my decision to avoid all of that... tried once before and she is such a master at twisting... it will somehow be my fault as usual. But the more I think about it... it is my fault by letting it continue... haven't eaten for 24 hrs.

Well you eat and make plans to move on with your life. We are here when you need and ear.
I wish you well.

Get your emotions under control, and you will feel hunger.

You are an affectionate, mature man, capable of sincere love (perhaps even too much). A man like you deserves the same level of affection that you are ready to give. It may be heartbreaking to accept she will never be able to trust a man again, but this is your life and you simply can't be someone's therapy forever. You and her have made your choices and you can't turn back. You are right to distance yourself. Either she will find it in herself to come to you with the amount of affection you deserve, or you will realize there are great women capable of loving and being loved as much as you are.

We got back together, then one morning while I was getting ready to leave her house... she had put her stuff in boxes with the intent on moving in with me... she made a comment on the car I was driving... I pointed to hers and said really?. she was upset and thought I was picking on her situation... I was and won't... which led to her...

I think you need to leave this situation alone. You are going to drive yourself nuts. You're going in circles