Sitting on the pity pot will get you no where fast. Your zeal to have something with this female, even friendship has resulted in where you are now. Alone. Sooner or later for your own good you will have to realise that you have focused so much on what you want, you have ignored totally the bigger picture. She has a boyfriend yet she still sees you, and you took a date as a sign that the door was open and you could walk through it and she has slammed it in your face. Yet still she leaves it cracked enough to give you hope for the future. Your thoughts and actions have got you in a very unhealthy place and the only solution would be to take steps to get sanity back and heal. Leave her alone. I know that's not what you want to hear, but unless you do, and start putting your life on a better track, chasing after her will make an enemy of you, and leave you hurt and frustrated. Leave her alone and concentrate on other areas of your life and allow yourself to heal and grow, to make better decisions for yourself, and see things much more clearly.

Well, I see where you guys are coming from. I think I am going to hang out with her on Tuesday. I'm going to bring up the last conversation and put everything I feel on the table and have an honest discussion about everything that has happened. From there I want to figure out what would be best for both of us. I'm guessing it will probably end up being us not talking to each other anymore. I'll post next tues...

Hi guys. Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been keeping myself busy. Well, she never called me to hang out that Tuesday. She actually made plans with her other friends that night. The last time I've talked to her was that phone conversation I posted. It's been about a month I think since then. Although we are at work together everyday, I have not said hi to her, or even looked at since she made other plans that night. She has not said hi to me either. I look back at how I was 2 months ago. I feel soooo much better than I did then. I've gotten used to life without her and video games, and it's pretty good. Sometimes though, I wonder if she'll ever say something to me again or not, although it's no big deal

Glad to hear you have been busy with your life and are doing so well. Thanks for updating us and continued Good Luck to you.

Give her some space and see what she wants. If you try to hard your only going to end up hurting yourself. Good luck sweet pea!