Of course, I agree. It's time to move on. And now, two days later I am seeing more and more how it probably wouldn't have worked out: I'm a 21 year old college student, growing and developing who I will be, and he's already basically become the person he will continue to be for the rest of his life, not to mention he's thinking marriage and kids at some point soon.
I guess now, I do have that understanding. But I wish I had asked him when he started thinking about it so seriously. Some of you claim he just wasn't that interested, but I'm having a hard time believing that. I mean, when I left for a 3 week trip to Europe he requested that we stay in touch through e-mail, which we did. He would even send me e-mails saying he was thinking about me. He immediately messaged me when I got back and scheduled a day to see me. Then he immediately scheduled another. On our last date, he asked that I sleepover and the next morning he couldn't let me go. At one point he was on the computer, as I was changing and gathering my stuff and he walked over to me and kissed me, and held me. Then he said he felt we should go to the beach next time. Not to mention that the night before we were supposed to go on a double date with a good friend of his and his friends girlfriend, but his friend had to postpone so he was seeing him the next day, which he also invited me to. So he would have introduced me to a close friend of his. Aren't all these signs of interest?
I feel like it may have been in big part his friends' influences. That morning I was at his place, he was getting ready to go running with a friend. So I feel like he probably told his friend about the 21 girl he's dating sleeping over, and his friend didn't understand what he was doing. The next day he had to help another friend move out, and that friend probably said the same. And he had told me that he talked about it with many of his friends, and thought about it for a while, and felt like it just wouldn't work out, as much as he enjoyed our time together.
I'm sorry I keep bringing this up. I'm on my way to recovery, and I feel that this probably is the best situation for the both of us. I guess I just have some unanswered questions, but I don't want to bring it up with him again. Does what I'm thinking make sense? And should I stay in touch with him? I feel like we laughed so much and had such a great time together, it would be sad to not keep him at least as a friend. Which is what he wants, is to remain at least friends when we're both ready. We talked on the phone for about an hour, and he kept saying "I've never experienced anything like this before, we never really established anything but I feel like this is a break up" and then he'd say that he didn't want to hang up knowing that this would be our last conversation together.
Also, maybe he was right in the crossing paths. Maybe in the future I'll be in stage in my life closer to his, and we will be able to try this again. We honestly had such a great connection. At least, considering the short amount of time we had been together, I can definitely see it happening if I'm not with anyone at that time, and if he's not with anyone at that time either. If that did happen maybe we're meant to be together and this was just not the right time for us to happen. Of course, if we both find someone before that, then it obviously wasn't meant to be, and I'm okay with that too.
I guess I feel like he must be a great guy to be able to end something great, for the best of us. But then again, maybe as you guys said there was something more that he wasn't telling me. I just don't feel like that was the case, from the way he was around me. And he has a strong personality, and is a very ambitious guy, I feel like it would make sense for him to look at it in an objective point of view.
I guess what I'm getting at is: Does this make sense? I almost want to contact him to answer my questions just for closure. But if I feel like I already know what he may answer, I don't want to re-open the discussion for nothing. Also, could staying in touch be a good idea? Considering that we got along so incredibly well?