Originally Posted by
evoqus
Well I'm no angel by far. I've had many women in my life. I've had a some one night stands and I've had friendships that just involved sex. The last serious relationship I had was about a year & a half ago. She was very beautiful and in fact, she was a model. Looks are somewhat important to me but not to the extreme. We where serious, but I got with her 6 months after a 5 year relationship that was terrible. The woman I was with for 5 years wasn't very attractive, but I loved her. She just had some insecurity issues that really killed our relationship. I started going to church and the whole 9 yards on the religious level and the fornication (sex outside marriage) issue with the model started ripping me apart. I loved her company, but when I shared with her that I wanted to pursue marriage because I felt what we where doing was wrong, she left me. She said that she wasn't ready for that, so I didn't argue about it and just let her go. I continued to go to church, but being alone was really bitting at me. I was passing up women left & right in an effort to do what was morally sound, but then I slipped up & got to dealing with several women on the sexual level again for about 3 months and I faded out of church. Once again, guilt kicked in and I dropped the women and went back to church-boy I'm a case ain't I? I've been celibate and alone for about a year now and I'd been sorta sluggish on the spiritual level. I'd been doing some serious soul searching and I feel what I recently said to the young lady this whole topic is over was a subconscious reaction. I think I liked her so much that it kinda scared me. She had many qualities that I really liked and expressed a strong interest in me, but God was absent in her life. I was just kind of embarrassed after the fact when they took my comment as being desperate. I really had a thing for this girl and was in the midst of a heavy battle within myself over the issue. A part of me wanted her bad, but my spiritual sense said no. I already knew her a little and I'd developed prior interest in her. Before I met her, I was striving to further gather myself spiritually. Deep within I want to do the things pleasing to God and I really would like a wife who'd share my spiritual interest. A family that prays together stays together. I'm just tired of dead-end relationships with fast women and I just want to do things right. I'm not perfect and I'm just a weak fleshly man. Sex and female companionship has always proved to be a severe weakness for me. I think the logical approach to this is to get married, but to someone who'll also be a source of spiritual strength for me. Marriage is a three fold cord. The husband and wife are on the outside and God is in the middle. Marriage can be a challenge, but without the one who instituted it, it has no foundation.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10
9Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders 10nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
