Originally Posted by
talaniman
What you call curiosity, I call wishful thinking and false hope. Neither should keep you from a real life with real people as I think its not productive to waste time on a guy who, who under guise of friendship, you want more with but can't have. Its unhealthy to even speculate the mind motives of others with so few facts as humans are seldom so logical.
For sure you know his priorities don't match yours and for sure while confounding to you, his words and actions do match and have for 4 years.
When you ignore facts for a single minded idea, then its no longer curiosity, its obsession. It doesn't take much to cross a line.
I really do hope you get a chance to explore and experiment with love and romance in person, but logically, its not going to happen soon, so be realistic and explore your other options and opportunities you may be missing with this obsession.