Originally Posted by
cozyk
It is a fair question and I will do my best to answer it for you. Actually, I appreciate you for asking.
I was brought up drenched in christianity. Saturated in it from all sides. It did not sit right with me, but I thought. I'm just a little kid, what do I know? The grown-ups are in charge and surely they wouldn't lead me astray. As I got older, still going along with the program, more and more did not jive. Plus, I saw hypocrisy all around me in christian circles. It REALLY began to get under my skin. Even make me rebellious towards it. NOT GOD, just the christian faith. I felt like God and I had a relationship but it was just cluttered by the ifs, whats, wherefores, and whys, involved in the faith. And the rituals, don't get me started. Communion tested my last nerve. Drink blood,? eat flesh,? Yuk! My relationship was a more "direct line" and with less clutter.
It's not that I LIKE pointing out how silly christians can be. I'm waiting on something to convince me that it isn't silly stuff. I would love to be persuaded, it's just that nothing has been shown to me that doesn't come across as silly. It seems that christians take things too literally. Like small children, believing the most rediculus things without thinking it through.
I think I figured out that the Santa Clause story was bunk as early as 4 or 5. I don't remember ever believing in him really. I would think, ok IF there is a Santa, HOW in the world would he get his fat body down a skinny chimney , and HOW could he go to every house in the world in one night, and HOW could he carry everyone's toys in one bag, and HOW can he live for hundreds and hundreds of years. I mean he did get old, because he has white hair and everything, but why would his age freeze at that point? For my friends that DID believe in him, I just thought they were not very bright to over look all these inconsistencies.
Logic and reason has always been a part of my thinking process. You ask why I come to these boards. It's because I am wanting something to ring true and sensible. I am hoping that my parents, grandparents, teachers, friends, are NOT just totally gullible fools. My friend believes in a literal location called hell that has a devil running around. I like to think she is more intelligent than that. She is in other areas. If someone could show me that I am the one that is wrong, it would make me have more respect for these literal believers around me. So far, it hasn't been done, but I'm still seeking. I have to fight back the urge to say" What are you, CRAZY? Yeah Noah collected a pair of EVERY species of EVERY animal on the planet and put them all together in ONE big boat. AND out of the millions of people roaming the earth, only one family was worthy to survive this flood. That makes God seem pretty ruthless doesn't it? That was one of my first clues as a small child that made me sit up and take notice. I thought , THIS story does not add up. If this doesn't add up, how reliable are the rest of the stories.
Another reason I come on these boards is that I think that maybe I CAN be a help to someone else. People that have lost their way and feel alone. I feel like God is within them, if they will just try to recognize that. God is approachable and not some scarey,
intimidating authority sitting up on a throne. I don't believe that my loving god is capable of being angry and punishing like some of the bible stories tell us. If a person does not believe in God, I want them to know they it doesn't make me see them as "less than". I still believe good loving people are still good loving people. And I still believe they are in gods hands whether they know it or not.
I question the christian faith as opposed to any other faith based board because christianity is the only faith I have a background in.
I am glad you ask me this and I'll be happy to answer anything else you want to know.:)