I've been there. I was 15 when it was at it's worst, I had a hard time accepting that I was pretty normal. A lot of 15year olds think about how they will die or even plan it in thought, try to ride it for a while and maybe a girlfriend would help. A change in routine helps depression and at your age you should have the energy to beat this.

Quote: Remember sadness is always temporary. This, too, shall pass.

by: Chuck T. Falcon

Mabey I'm a little late. But anyway I know what you mean dude.
Im apparently going to get shot if I joined the army or crash in a bike accident. Mabey we just want somebody come and actually understand what's going on.
Anyway good luck.

Sounds like what I call a mild form of depression (mainly due to boredom) more of an external thing than an internal one.
You are probably the type that likes to contemplate the deeper meaning of life and want a deeper perspective of things rather than accept the shallower materialistic everyday stuff most people settle for. Try reading books on building character and spirituality and look deeper into your soul (self growth type books)

I think that you don't need to worry about how or when you are going to die.. because sooner or later your going to start obsessing about it.. and honestly its already starting to sound like that.. If your not talking to your friends and finding that you have low self esteem then you need to surround yourself with people that understand what your going through and try to get past this.. When god decides to take you up to heaven to be with him for eternity then there is nothing you can do to stop it.. so don't worry about it

I think that you don't need to worry about how or when you are going to die.. because sooner or later your going to start obsessing about it.. and honestly its already starting to sound like that.. If your not talking to your friends and finding that you have low self esteem then you need to surround yourself with people that understand what your going through and try to get past this.. When god decides to take you up to heaven to be with him for eternity then there is nothing you can do to stop it.. so don't worry about it