Allthatremains
Dec 5, 2012, 12:56 AM
My ex girlfriend and I broke up about 3 months ago. This was a long distance relationship. We saw each other a lot though. If we couldn't see each other in person we would skype,call each other, and text every day. It was the best relationship I've ever had. I will admit she was the first one I actually loved so much that I would do anything for her. It was all perfect up until she moved 20hours away from me by car. We planned on flying to see each other every few months. A month after she moved I went on vacation to Europe and support my grandmother because my grandfather passed. My ex girlfriend told me that she would call me and email now and then. She only called me once and emailed 8times for all those 6weeks I was in europe.I have never cheated on her or even thought about anything like that.
So as soon as the plane lands I text her. She tells me how much she missed me and loves me. We skyped that night and she said that I should go to college in her state. I told her that I wouldn't have a place to live so she got upset. I told her she can move in with me in 5months she said okay.
It was my turn to fly down to see her. I told her I couldn't because I had financial problems at the moment. I told her as soon as I get my job sorted I would come as soon a possible. She started going all weird after that. A week later she asks me if I still want to be in a relationship with her. I was speechless that she would even ask that. I knew that she wanted to breakup with me, but why? Because I couldn't go see her when she wanted. I told her I had to take care of my grandmother since she is all alone in Europe. My ex girlfriend didn't believe me , she thought that I just didn't want to see her. And again I was just speechless.
Since I got back from Europe she started to act kind of strange. I never told her what to do. Always told her she's the most beautiful girl in the world and that I would only love her. Tried my best to get her what she wanted. She broke up with me 2 weeks later just because she couldn't handle not seeing each other. I tried my hardest not to lose her. I begged her not to do this to me. I wanted to surprise her by coming to visit her without her knowing. I was so depressed. I still am sometimes.
A few weeks go by she texts me asking me how I'm doing bla bla bla. I basically told her to screw off and that I want nothing to do with her. She kind of laughed at that and we didn't speak for a good month and a half. A few days she texts my sister asking her for my number and that she wants to talk to me. My sister told me about this, I thought about whether I should talk to her or just ignore it. I couldn't ignore it sadly. I ask her what she wanted and she replied " I want to talk to you" " you know me better the anybody in the world , I can't just never talk to you again". I don't reply, then she says " I know I hurt you and I'm sorry I never wanted to. But I realized that we weren't ment to be a couple, but you are my closest friend and I'll always love you I wish we could still be friends ". I reply that we could be friends just not close friends. She starts telling me about this guy she's "dating" telling me all about him, how she's really into him . And it's disgusts me. So I tell her about my close friends, my friend she helped me a lot.
I told my ex not to talk about any guys and she said that I wouldn't talk About any girls. We both agreed to this. Then she brings this guy up again I pretend not to give a . But it's really starting to piss me off. My ex and I have been friends for 8 years before we began a relationship. I don't want to lose contact with her but at the same time I just can't stand her telling me about guys. I still have feelings for her and want to be with her but I just can't live like this. Being depressed all the time isn't a way to live.
I used to be so happy before this relationship ended. Used to be so energetic looking forward to spending the rest of our lives together. I knew that wouldn't happen because I always thought that she would find someone better then I am. Tried to think otherwise all the time. I wish we could be together but at the same time just disgusts me. I really do want to be friends with her . Just really hard to be only friends with her.
Please I need some advice on how I can get over her.
P.S. I know I didn't write this very well I just can't think straight. Thinking about her...
So as soon as the plane lands I text her. She tells me how much she missed me and loves me. We skyped that night and she said that I should go to college in her state. I told her that I wouldn't have a place to live so she got upset. I told her she can move in with me in 5months she said okay.
It was my turn to fly down to see her. I told her I couldn't because I had financial problems at the moment. I told her as soon as I get my job sorted I would come as soon a possible. She started going all weird after that. A week later she asks me if I still want to be in a relationship with her. I was speechless that she would even ask that. I knew that she wanted to breakup with me, but why? Because I couldn't go see her when she wanted. I told her I had to take care of my grandmother since she is all alone in Europe. My ex girlfriend didn't believe me , she thought that I just didn't want to see her. And again I was just speechless.
Since I got back from Europe she started to act kind of strange. I never told her what to do. Always told her she's the most beautiful girl in the world and that I would only love her. Tried my best to get her what she wanted. She broke up with me 2 weeks later just because she couldn't handle not seeing each other. I tried my hardest not to lose her. I begged her not to do this to me. I wanted to surprise her by coming to visit her without her knowing. I was so depressed. I still am sometimes.
A few weeks go by she texts me asking me how I'm doing bla bla bla. I basically told her to screw off and that I want nothing to do with her. She kind of laughed at that and we didn't speak for a good month and a half. A few days she texts my sister asking her for my number and that she wants to talk to me. My sister told me about this, I thought about whether I should talk to her or just ignore it. I couldn't ignore it sadly. I ask her what she wanted and she replied " I want to talk to you" " you know me better the anybody in the world , I can't just never talk to you again". I don't reply, then she says " I know I hurt you and I'm sorry I never wanted to. But I realized that we weren't ment to be a couple, but you are my closest friend and I'll always love you I wish we could still be friends ". I reply that we could be friends just not close friends. She starts telling me about this guy she's "dating" telling me all about him, how she's really into him . And it's disgusts me. So I tell her about my close friends, my friend she helped me a lot.
I told my ex not to talk about any guys and she said that I wouldn't talk About any girls. We both agreed to this. Then she brings this guy up again I pretend not to give a . But it's really starting to piss me off. My ex and I have been friends for 8 years before we began a relationship. I don't want to lose contact with her but at the same time I just can't stand her telling me about guys. I still have feelings for her and want to be with her but I just can't live like this. Being depressed all the time isn't a way to live.
I used to be so happy before this relationship ended. Used to be so energetic looking forward to spending the rest of our lives together. I knew that wouldn't happen because I always thought that she would find someone better then I am. Tried to think otherwise all the time. I wish we could be together but at the same time just disgusts me. I really do want to be friends with her . Just really hard to be only friends with her.
Please I need some advice on how I can get over her.
P.S. I know I didn't write this very well I just can't think straight. Thinking about her...