Ok, so I started going out with my so call boyfriend now ex in January. Everything was going great but I wasn't taking him serious cause I was well, I felt like I was in love with this older guy. That he was just brain washing me for about 4 years and so I ended up cheating on this guy with him. I ended up telling my boyfriend cause at the moment, I didn't care if it was over. But now I want us back together.

I want to work things out. I don't care about the other guy anymore. I've open my eyes but the thing is like 3 weeks ago, I went threw my ex boyfriend phone, and I saw a lot of girls, pics. And pics of him kissing his ex, And has pics with her in his wallet He explain why he has them. Didn't make sense. This big fight, blow up, caused me, and him to be messed up. But now he says he wants to be with me, but he doesn't even try, and I really want to be with him, but I don't trust him. I don't know what to do with this feeling! Its so hard to even explain is there any way we can fix this?

May I ask how old are you?

I think it was stupid of you to tell him you cheated, when there was a chance you would want him back. Never tell a guy you cheated, unless you're going to continuously do it. There is no way to actually work it out because you both will never fully trust each other. Even if you get back together and "pretend" everythings okay, there will always be doubts about cheating.

I'm 19

@ sparks we'll liike I said the whole reason I said it was cause I didn't care if the relationship was over but it flip back to me I didn't think ill want him back but now I want him more than ever and yeah I understand I don't they'll ever be trust

Give yourself time away and have some fun without him in your life, and start fresh with some one else. Less drama, and misery that way. Hey it just didn't work, so walk away, and don't look back.

Too much poison in this relationship, for it to ever work.