notozozo
May 20, 2009, 01:36 AM
Hi!
In 2004 doing my first year @tertiary but I got sexualy abused by my aunt husband and I cuoldnt tell anyone bt at school I was failing and ended up being excluded and I decided to tell my mom because she shouted at me telling that I'm a waist and useless and it took me years to tell her because we never had a child and mom convesation and I'm the only child but anyway I did tell her and they discussed as family and they told me its going to be a secrete for the family and I pretended as if I'm fine I can cope with every thing but no I can't I got schoolarship and I failed and now I cnt tell my mom that I'm not studying I pretedn as if I'm studying cause every morning I do wake up and now what depress me more is that at the age of 24 I'm still depending on her money and everytme she gave me money I think of what she told me tha I'm waisting her money and she is compering me with others I really don't know at times I feel like killing myself cause she doesn't know what I'm going through because I'm alwaiz having that smile mask that I put on my face bt deep down I'm scared.PLEASE HELP
In 2004 doing my first year @tertiary but I got sexualy abused by my aunt husband and I cuoldnt tell anyone bt at school I was failing and ended up being excluded and I decided to tell my mom because she shouted at me telling that I'm a waist and useless and it took me years to tell her because we never had a child and mom convesation and I'm the only child but anyway I did tell her and they discussed as family and they told me its going to be a secrete for the family and I pretended as if I'm fine I can cope with every thing but no I can't I got schoolarship and I failed and now I cnt tell my mom that I'm not studying I pretedn as if I'm studying cause every morning I do wake up and now what depress me more is that at the age of 24 I'm still depending on her money and everytme she gave me money I think of what she told me tha I'm waisting her money and she is compering me with others I really don't know at times I feel like killing myself cause she doesn't know what I'm going through because I'm alwaiz having that smile mask that I put on my face bt deep down I'm scared.PLEASE HELP