Are there many other 35 year old virgins?
I'm a 35 year old woman and I've never had sex.
But I think I need to tell you more about me to understand how this has happened.
I was close to having sex a couple of times, but not for the past 8 years, as I haven't had a relationship since.
My first sexual encounter was when I was 13. My 18 year old neighbour pushed me into a corner and touched me inappropriately. I was able to run away after a while. Then my mother's boyfriend tried to touch me - again I was able to push him away.
When I was 15 I was very confident about my look and I got a lot of attention from boys/men. That's when I fell in love and seriously thought about having sex. But the young man I fell in love with died suddenly due to an accident.
I started gaining weight and became less confident about my appearance. Although people tell me I'm pretty, I'm pretty fat and my body has been ruined by the weight losses and gains over the years. I don't feel very attractive, although in some ways I'm very aware of my sexuality, e.g. I know that men like my breasts. A friend of mine told me recently that I appear very confident and that I ooze sexuality.
Inside me, it's all different. I don't know how to approach men. As soon as I feel that they want more, I get uncomfortable. I'm afraid they will find me unattractive when they touch me at certain wobbly places or I get insecure, because I'm not experienced.
I've never touched a penis, because I thought I'm going to do it wrong.
I don't think I'm frigid, because I fantasize about sex a lot and orgasm when I masturbate.
So what's really my question? Well, first of all, am I the only one out there in a similar situation?
Is this normal? What should I do? I do want to meet a special person and I want to have a fulfilled sex life. What do men think about a woman like me?