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Originally Posted by simoneaugie

Hey Meow. The fact that you are exploring the feelings and opinions of others is something many do not do. That is probably why you have so many successes working. You take your clients, just as they are. If there were more people with your attitude, I think our world would be a better place.

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I agree.
There have been a few people who have come on here who are strippers... they actually sounds like dirty strippers just from the way they type.
From the way you talk, in general and about yourself it sounds like you have your feet pretty firmly on the ground. You take all the precautions and understand what your work means.

I understand why you don't want to tell people about your work... yes it is none of their business but also the fact that people or so quick to judge.
You say the words "sex worker" to most people and they will instantly take it negatively.

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Originally Posted by Meow420

I lie to those i love because the truth would hurt them. No mother or father wishes to hear their daughter is a prostitute. I come from a good family with a strict upbringing. My mother a teacher, my dad a carpenter, a little brother in the police force. This is the only lie i tell them. They do know i have a sex problem. They know about my promiscuity.

I was never abused as a child. Never raped as a teenager. Never had any bad sexual experiences. My past relationships were all different. I left home at 16, by choice. I just wanted to be independant. I still went to high school and graduated with very good grades. When i was 16-18 I was very submissive, very quiet but i slept around alot. After that i had long term partners. My last relationship was 3 years ago.. it lasted 5 yrs, and i ended it when i started cheating on him.

I liked myself as a child in all aspects.
Yes i give my clients sound advice. For instance, one man came to see me cos his wife of 20yrs didnt want sex anymore. We talked about it and after hearing his story, i could see he was no longer doing all the nice things that get us women going (ie helping around the house, he never hugged her, he never called her sweetheart anymore etc) so i told him to get his butt into gear and start doin all those things that he used to, to make her feel special.. 2 weeks later he came back in to see me, not to have sex, but to tell me he tried it and it worked.. and i have a million more true examples like that.

Yes i do think im helping them in a positive way.

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Hmmm, Other than the sex addiction, why did you choose what you are doing? If you could do something else what would it be?

Hmmm, strict upbringing eh? (I'm not trying to sound arrogant/condesending, I just say Hmm when I'm having a hard time deciding how to phrase or say something. Articulation isn't my strong point.) How did you learn about sex? When did you become sexually active, and were you addicted from the start, or did something trigger it, (I'm not calling you a drug addict but... ) did you ever do any drugs?

So, are there any other reasons for your keeping this seecret from your family? Other than the obvious?

Wow, you were a tough/smart girl, more than I can say for myself. Submissive, why did that happen? Do you know? When did it happen? Did something happen that made you feel like that, or was it just who you were? Why did you sleep around so much? Or was it just the sex addiction? The 5yr relationship, did you cheat because of sex addiction?

Hmmm, did he have sex with you? The married guy that you helped? That does seem like sound advice, indeed.

Perhaps you are helping in a positive way. You seem fairly aware of things, but this issue of "is it ok to do what you do?"

Please understand that nothing I say is absolute, and is only suggestive. Only you can know what is to be done, or whether what I ask is relevant, or helpful.


Peace and kindness be with you.

So besides the married guy you asked about in your previous question you see other men too? I see why you said about liking it this way so they don't get attached.

No I am not narrow minded that you enjoy your 'sex worker' job but personally I do not see how having sex is therapy, counselling or whatever you want to call it especially when the other guy is married.

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Originally Posted by Meow420

the worlds opinion can weigh u done sometims.. have u ever done anyting that the magority of people would go "boo" at? Its hard. Even within the sex industry, there are women there who think i am strange. They do the job for money and money alone. Even as a fellow sex worker, they do not understand the enjoyment i get out of my job. So if even hookers are questioning my mental state, how can i not start questioning myself?


Lying to those i love is hard but id rather that one lie then break their hearts. If they knew the exact situation i was in and understood the way the sex industry works in this country then they might not be as concernd but all they see on tv about brothels is drugs, horrible men and bad things. Whcih is NOT the environment i work in.

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Yes, opinions of others are rather harsh, cold, and cruel; but most of all ignorent and Foolish. Yes, I do all the time. People don't like doing the things I do because I don't like to party (a fear of crowds) or drink as much as every one else. (family hystory of alcoholism.) I also don't want to be so selfish like most people. Big house, two people live in it? (Really, seriously, we kill how many achers of forest to make one house. How many animals homes are destroyed? Then when they wander into town we kill them because we are territorial? Who are the real animals? Those who are incapable of intelegence, or those who choose to be ignorent?) We don't need as much as we have, but every one wants more, and more, until there is nothing left to have. I don't know how to survive in Canada with out being like that, and I Don't know any one who shares my veiws, so I stand alone, broken and sucked into that same life style I hate. I really want to be a social worker, to help children/youth. I wanted to start a program where maybe I could educate them how to get a long, be individuals, respect the world around them, and appreciate living with a little less, to give a little more. Yeah, I get strange looks, told how stupid that is, that I'm crazy, and as a result I've isoalted myself from most others. I spend most of my time alone, because I voice myself. Especailly when some one makes foolish assumptions about things on the news, or other people. I dislike people who think that life works one way, and only one way. I believe that "life is pliable." It is adaptable, and always changing. That's why anything is possible, because things are always in motion and ever changing. (Sorry that was so long, just wanted to show you, you are not alone.)

You do seem to break the mold, I think you'd be a facinating person to study. (Sorry, psychology is a passion of mine.)

Self doubt is a painful thing, but doubting (in other words questioning) the answers is painful too, but grants, those who are willing to ablige, wisdom. It is hard to ignore the opinions of others, when we have only our own to defend us. Try to remember,"Don't under estimate the power of one, for one may very well be more powerful than any combined..." -Nestorian

When we learn to Love/forgive/respect/know ourselves we can finally be ourselves. When that happens, we are very strong and our will becomes more than most can bare; thus, we can pay no attention to the tellings of others opinions about us and of how many people think we are less than we are. Yes, we can be at peace with ourselves, and rather than take in negative energy, we let it pass through us so we can be ourselves and let others find what truth lay before them. In other words, people will say things about us, be we will simply let it go, and bemindful of who we are, and that they precieve things for themselves; thus cause their own suffering. Mind you there are things that guid us there.

People will see what they want to see and fear will dominate their mind, obscuring the truth until they can't see past their own point of view. I understand how hard that must be.

Peace and kindness be with you.

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Originally Posted by Meow420

Yes i am "cool" with those i love lying to me to protect me. and of course in the past they have. Not justify lying but sometimes i guess you do it to spare those u love from pain.

I am not ashamed of what i do, but to me it is a private thing. I dont dicuss which position i like best with them so tellin them i accept money for sex is kinda in that catagory to me.

I dont think they need to know. In the past i have worked and had a partner at the same time i have lied to them also. In my head i justified it by saying "well if they arent paying my bills, they dont need to know what im doing" I have since then changed that. I wont work while i am with someone, but then i met the married man and with him i can tell all. He is the first "relationship" ive been in where i can be totally honest and its nice.

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Fair enough. I'd rather the truth, for then I can solve the situation, rather than suffer the, more often than not, impending consequences. There are times to lie for me, like I loved this one girl, she had BF issues, they broke up, she and I got together, then they got back together. She asked me, "Are you ok? Are you upset? Are you mad? Do you hate me?..." and so on. I told her, "Yes, i'm fine. These are my feelings and i must deal with them myself. No i'm not upset. (that was a lie, i was torn.) No i'm not mad. (true, i was not mad at her, just myself, but oddly not very much so.) No, I love you actually.(true)" For the longest time when she'd call me to tell me how much of a jerck he was being, and she would ask, "are you ok, how do you feel about all this?" I would only reply, "I"m fine." Then she'd press the matter, I'd reply, "My feelings are my own, so don't worry about Me." Till she finally thretoned to stop talking to me if I didn't tell her how I felt... Well she didn't talk to me any more any way, as i expressed the deepest darkest part of me to her. Depression's a hard thing to put off while love sick, and greiving. I think she got more than she barganed for. Or maybe it was that I told her I just wanted her BF to treat her better... I dont know. Any who, I try to avoid lying as it is like taking responsibility away from some one, and thus their freedom to choose what is best for them. Even if it hurts. At least they can deal with it.

Fair enough.

"well if they aren't paying my bills, they don't need to know what I'm doing"-you
This seems like you would not want to be with some one, as it's kind of a big thing. I know you said you changed that, but I just want to know who you think of my reasoning. Sex, and STDs, yes you get tested, and are "safe", but nothing is 100% and you can get an STD from kissing and such. I think the most known are syphillis and herpes. Any who, a condom could break or what ever. Do you think your partner has a right to know? But only if you are kissing or sexual? Other wise you are taking the responsibility from that person to keep them selve safe, no?
At any rate, I think that you made a good desicion changing that.

"I met the married man and with him I can tell all. He is the first "relationship" I've been in where I can be totally honest and its nice."-you

hmm... the guy you helped? with his wife? Sorry i'm confused, what is your relationship? Work, sexual partners, "dating"?

Peace and kindness be with you.

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Originally Posted by Meow420

In some situations, yes i can say "im a sex worker" with ease... but as soon as i do, if there are men around, they all think they can get me into bed for free, they all automatically assume im a slut.

To say it to my family....well that is a different story. I think my mum would blame herself..something she didnt do as a child and that would be most untrue. My family has awlways been there for me. Even when ive been a little cow to them. I think they have put up with enough crap from me.. now at 30yrs old id like to save them some heart ache i guess.

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Yes, some people do get like that when they sense there is opportunity for a free romp, sorry if that's offencive.

You deffinately have boundaries, but I wonder...


Lets try this on, if you are with some one and you love them, you stop working for them but then you find out that they've been going to a brothel on the side, keeping it to themselves, what then? And more so, what if you have kids, 2 of them. One 6 the other 8. Would you leave him, or stay? What if he said he wasn't going to stop going whether you stay or not?

Sorry to put you on the spot but I'm curious as I've said you are a facinating person.

I hope I've not crossed any lines, if so feel free to tell me so.

Peace and kindness be with you.

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Who am i? I am a 30yr old sex worker, who loves sex, who is happy in most aspects of my life..... Why is who i am not ok? Well i think I am ok.

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Hello Meow:

I've read the whole thing. I think you're OK too.

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Originally Posted by shazamataz

yes it is none of their business but also the fact that people or so quick to judge.
You say the words "sex worker" to most people and they will instantly take it negatively.

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Its funny because a lot of sex workers hate the term "prostitute". To call them that is like a mortal sin lol.. Most use "Sex worker" or "Escort".

Me personally, I call a spade a spade. Im a Pristitute, Escort, Sex Worker, Whore... Yep all those things, and I have no hang ups about people using any of the terms... it is what it is :)

But in other peoples ears, you're right, instantly negative thoughts! If only I could change that perception that people have...

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Originally Posted by Nestorian

Hmmm, Other than the sex addiction, why did you choose what you are doing?? If you could do something else what would it be?

Hmmm, strict upbringing eh? (I'm not trying to sound arrogant/condesending, I just say Hmm when i'm having a hard time deciding how to phrase or say something. Articulation isn't my strong point.) How did you learn about sex? When did you become sexually active, and were you addicted from the start, or did something trigger it, (I'm not calling you a drug addict but...) did you ever do any drugs??

So, are there any other reasons for your keeping this seecret from your family?? Other than the obvious??

Wow, you were a tough/smart girl, more than i can say for myself. Submissive, why did that happen? Do you know? When did it happen? Did something happen that made you feel like that, or was it just who you were?? Why did you sleep around so much?? or was it just the sex addiction?? The 5yr relationship, did you cheat because of sex addiction??

Hmmm, did he have sex with you?? The married guy that you helped? That does seem like sound advice, indeed.

Perhaps you are helping in a positive way. You seem fairly aware of things, but this issue of "is it ok to do what you do?"

Please understand that nothing I say is absolute, and is only suggestive. Only you can know what is to be done, or whether what i ask is relevant, or helpful.


Peace and kindness be with you.

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Why did I choose what I am doing? - If I could choose something else what would it be? - I was never one to have a career focus at any time in my life. |When I was little I changed my mind every 10mins as to what I wanted to be when I grew up! I was getting really good grades at school (they got better when I moved out of home into a more independent lifestyle) but I got freaked out after doing an estimate of my TER (a university entrance scoring) - I got a really high estimate... I felt so much pressure (from the entire teaching staff) That I quit school altogether. I did administration work for a few years, got over the office poiltics and startd looking for a new industry path. I answered an ad for a "Receptionist" position. It didn't say what type of business it was though. When I got there I realise it was some kind of "sex" place. At that point in my life I would NEVER set foot in a brothel. But I was there, so I went ahead with the job interview.. By the time the manager explained the job and told me about what went on, I pretty much BEGGED him for the job. He wasn't going to hire me, due to my age (21) But after I pleaded for hi to give me one chance, he agreed. I worked there for a few months, a 5star massage parlour (rub and tug) with strictly no sex on premises. The ladies were all educated, beautiful women that were just doing this kind of work on the side. They nearly all had "normal" 9-5 jobs, there was a solicitor, a nurse, a gym instructor, 2 med students and the list goes on. There was no drugs on premise. I looked at the sex industry in a new light. I wanted to become a part of it. All the girls knew I would "jump the counter" (become a sex worker).. they could see how in awe of it I was... that's how it started I guess... As to what I would be doing if I could do anything... as I said, I was never career minded. After doing this job 8 yrs, I know I don't have that many more years of looking young and able to make money, so as a plan be I have looked into several couselling degrees (how ironic, when here I am needing a counsellor more than most here lmao).. social work... everything that deals with people and their problems...

How did I learn about sex? I don't know how I learned about sex... but I do know that I started masterbating at age 5 or younger. My mum relishes in telling people stories about how she would come in the room and I would have my hands down my pants... I was also caught at 6yrs with a 7yr old little girl next door... we were touching each other. It had been my idea. Wow... that sounds messed up.. oh dear..

Absolutely I have done drugs. I did have a weed habit for a few years but went to detox and everything is under control. I am drug free in my day to day life.. but I must admit, on my birthday and new years, I like to have a "good" time. I want to ad, I never used needles. Ever.

There are no other reasons to hide this from my family I wish I could tell them. I really do.. I think about it a lot.. but there is no way I want to see that look of disappointment in their eyes..

I think you are getting confused... I told a story about a married guy I helped, but there is another married man that I speak of that I am in a "relationship" with..

Hope I'm not boring you lol.. tell me to shut up :)

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So besides the married guy you asked about in your previous question you see other men too? I see why you said about liking it this way so they don't get attached.

No I am not narrow minded that you enjoy your 'sex worker' job but personally I do not see how having sex is therapy, counselling or whatever you want to call it especially when the other guy is married.

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Yes I do see other guys too, but normally not more than once.. (like a one night stand)

With your comment on the counselling thing... most guys go to brothels and such because they are looking for something. They don't know where else to go. Half the time, guys only actually have sex with prostitutes is because that is the façade they hide behind. What they really might want is someone to cuddle, someone to massage, to feel a women's skin after not having one in their life.. ots not about the sex.. but they think that's what a man should do. He paid for sex, so he should have sex, even if that's not what he is desiring.. what they really pay for is my time..

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You do seem to break the mold, I think you'd be a facinating person to study. (Sorry, psychology is a passion of mine.)

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Isn't that what you're doing now anyway? :)

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Originally Posted by Nestorian

"well if they arent paying my bills, they dont need to know what im doing"-you
This seems like you would not want to be with some one, as it's kind of a big thing. I know you said you changed that, but I just want to know who you think of my reasoning. Sex, and STDs, yes you get tested, and are "safe", but nothing is 100% and you can get an STD from kissing and such. I think the most known are syphillis and herpes. Any who, a condom could break or what ever. Do you think your partner has a right to know? But only if you are kissing or sexual? Other wise you are taking the responsibility from that person to keep them selve safe, no?
At any rate, I think that you made a good desicion changing that.

"i met the married man and with him i can tell all. He is the first "relationship" ive been in where i can be totally honest and its nice."-you

hmm... the guy you helped? with his wife? Sorry i'm confused, what is your relationship? Work, sexual partners, "dating"??

Peace and kindness be with you.

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The "they aint paying my bills" statement was because never had I ,at that point, or even since then, never have I been with a man that earned as much money as me. Now this is not an issue for me.. I'm happy to provide for my man, what's mine is yours 100%. But at the time I started thinking like that, my boyfriend at the time was unemployed and was draining me financially, even when I had a "normal" job. I never held money over him as a tool, he was free to take money from my wallet without asking.. . but yeah it was around then I justified the lies about where I worked by saying that statement.

Yes you can get diseasess from kissing, but I do not kiss my clients. I only kiss one man at the present time. Absolutely condoms can break, but there are ways of preventing this. I always use lubricant, I occasionally have a feel down there during sex, just to make sure I'm not dry (and also just a useful fact for you boys.. u may hate condoms because you lose sensitivity etc BUT they can also be an issue for us girls! They dry me the hell up!) and if I am, I stop and reapply! I think my single non-sex workr friends have more accidents like that in a year than I have had in my whole life time.

Absolutely, for me, I would want any future partners to know if I was still working. Its not fair on them not to tell them.

You have gotten 2 different married men confused ( I also posted another question about my relationship with him) there is an example of a married client I used in this thread though.. not the same people though..

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Originally Posted by Nestorian

Yes, some people do get like that when they sense there is oportunity for a free romp, sorry if thats offencive.

You deffinately have boundaries, but I wonder...


Lets try this on, if you are with some one and you love them, you stop working for them but then you find out that they've been going to a brothel on the side, keeping it to them selves, what then? And more so, what if you have kids, 2 of them. one 6 the other 8. Would you leave him, or stay? What if he said he wasn't going to stop going whether you stay or not?

Sorry to put you on the spot but i'm curious as I've said you are a facinating person.

I hope I've not crossed any lines, if so feel free to tell me so.

Peace and kindness be with you.

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OK if I'm in love with someone and have kids to them, then they will know my views on fidelity in a relationship.. If they asked me to leave work, I would. If they didn't ask, I would stay. My partner would have the same freedom as I would like to have. Im fine with my partner going to a brothel. Im fine with my partner having a one night stand. As long as it doesn't take away from my needs of him. Say for instance - he wanted to have sex 7days a week but I only wanted it 2 times a week (will never happen, but this is an exmple lol) OK, I wouldn't say to him, "i only want it 2 times so thats all ur getting" I would make sure I get my 2 times an then he is free to do whoever he wants. I'm not going to be selfish and suppress someone's needs and wants. Just the same as I do not want to be constricted to monogomy. In saying that though.. im not ruling monogomy for me out altogether.. it just doesn't suit me right now...

So in answer to that, if I caught him going to a brothel, I would say "I hope you didnt put that on the credit card" and give him a cheeky grin x x

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Hello Meow:

I've read the whole thing. I think you're ok too.

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:) thank you for your comment.. short and sweet x x x

Okay, seriously---moderating this thread is driving me CRAZY because of the chat speak.

Any further posts where a poster cannot spell out "you", "you're", "your"... or any OTHER chat speak will simply be deleted.

If YOU are an adult, then YOU can type out all of YOUR words. Period.

If you're not adult enough to type like an adult, you don't belong in the Adult Sexuality threads.

Again--any further chat speak will be deleted with NO explanation or apology.

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Okay, seriously---moderating this thread is driving me CRAZY because of the chat speak.

Any further posts where a poster cannot spell out "you", "you're", "your"....or any OTHER chat speak will simply be deleted.

If YOU are an adult, then YOU can type out all of YOUR words. Period.

If you're not adult enough to type like an adult, you don't belong in the Adult Sexuality threads.

Again--any further chat speak will be deleted with NO explanation or apology.

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Ah hi, um Im really sorry that I am guilty of doing these things, but in my defense, I didn't know that that was the rules on this site. Really sorry.. Will try not to let it happen again

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Why did I choose what i am doing? - If I could choose something else what would it be? - I was never one to have a career focus at any time in my life. |When i was little i changed my mind every 10mins as to what i wanted to be when i grew up! I was getting really good grades at school (they got better when i moved out of home into a more independant lifestyle) but i got freaked out after doing an estimate of my TER (a university entrance scoring) - I got a really high estimate... I felt so much pressure (from the entire teaching staff) That i quit school altogether. I did administration work for a few years, got over the office poiltics and startd looking for a new industry path. I answered an ad for a "Receptionist" position. It didnt say what type of business it was tho. When i got there i realise it was some kind of "sex" place. At that point in my life i would NEVER set foot in a brothel. But i was there, so i went ahead with the job interview.. By the time the manager explained the job and told me about what went on, i pretty much BEGGED him for the job. He wasnt going to hire me, due to my age (21) But after i pleaded for hi to give me one chance, he agreed. I worked there for a few months, a 5star massage parlour (rub n tug) with strictly no sex on premises. The ladies were all educated, beautiful women that were just doin this kind of work on the side. They nearly all had "normal" 9-5 jobs, there was a solicitor, a nurse, a gym instructor, 2 med students and the list goes on. There was no drugs on premise. I looked at the sex industry in a new light. I wanted to become a part of it. All the girls knew i would "jump the counter" (become a sex worker)..they could see how in awe of it i was.... thats how it started i guess... As to what I would be doing if i could do anything...as i said, i was never career minded. After doin this job 8 yrs, i know i dont have that many more years of looking young and able to make money, so as a plan b i have looked into several couselling degrees (how ironic, when here i am needing a counsellor more than most here lmao).. social work... everything that deals with people and their problems...

How did i learn about sex? I dont know how i learned about sex...but i do know that i started masterbating at age 5 or younger. My mum relishes in tellin people stories about how she would come in the room and i would have my hands down my pants... I was also caught at 6yrs with a 7yr old little girl next door...we were touchin each other. It had been my idea. Wow... that sounds messed up.. oh dear..

Absolutely i have done drugs. I did have a weed habit for a few years but went to detox and everything is under control. I am drug free in my day to day life.. but i must admit, on my birthday and new years, i like to have a "good" time. I want to ad, I never used needles. Ever.

There are no other reasons to hide this from my family I wish i could tell them. I really do.. i think about it alot.. but there is no way i want to see that look of disappointment in their eyes..

I think you are getting confused... i told a story about a married guy i helped, but there is another married man that i speak of that i am in a "relationship" with..

Hope im not boring u lol.. tell me to shut up :)

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Boring me? Hardly, I'm fascinated by you, and how you think/assess things. Not to be crossing lines, but, If anything I'd want to meet with you and see what your daily life is like and the people you meet, the secrets you keep, and so forth. You are unlike any person I've ever really known. And I value all perspectives, for that is how I can better understand others. By getting to know you, I get to know others, and more importantly myself. I hope that doesn't bother you.

Hmmm, no being a counselor and social worker isn't really an odd desire nor is it by any means a poor career choice when you think you need help. See, it seems that those who know or learn first hand about such things as being confused about life and are in need of help learn the skills necessarry to help others. This I call the branching effect, as some one teaches you and many others, or tries to, then some of them/you try teaching some as well, and it keeps branching out. You can also relate, and understand better than some one who hasn't expereienced the same kind of lost, or confusing situations.

No your sexual behaviour when you were young seems normal. Young children do those kinds of things to explore their bodies and to learn about themselves and others, by playing doctor/nurse or what have you. Your mum embarrassing you with stories seems normal too. Nothing weird about that.

Hmmm, "good time" as in Alcohol and pot, or more like cocaine/crack/meth/etc (Minus the needle drugs.) Please be careful with these things, as they are all dangerous and cause us to not be ourselves, but more like mindless Zombies. (Sorry, that is more my opinion, and it's none of my business, so no worries/pressure to answer any of that.)

As for your protecting your family, be careful, and be mindful of your feelings on the matters encompassing that asspect of your life.

Ah, very well. So, this other man you are in a relationship with... (If you don't mind my asking?) Why are you in a "relationship" with him when he is married? (It happens all the time, people often agree to unrealistic ideals and end up feeling confused, afraid, angery, traped, and like a failure. Till death do us part? Kind of a load of BS, unless two people are truly dedicated, other wise, its all meaningless and a lie in the end any way.) What do you think of the man you are in a relationship with's wife? How do you think she would feel if she found out about you two? Do you feel remorse or bad for allowing him in your life? Why do you trust him when he is "cheating" on his wife, and breaking his vow to love her till he or she dies? Do they have kids and do you wonder what will happen to them, how they might see/precive you? Do you think that your sex worker life has altered your perception of your relationships, as well as those of others?
Can you define what a relationship is?

Once again, I hope I'm not digging too deep, as I'm told that I'm often too deep. This is one major reason people act defensive to me I s'pose, but if you can't face the dark things you keep deep within, then how can you ever hope to truly find yourself? Thank you for answering my questions, as I'm sure they are annoying by now and aggrivating. My sinceirest apologies for that. I am simply interested in what makes you who you are, and if you are indeed "happy"/content/saticfied.


May peace and kindness be with you.

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You do seem to break the mold, I think you'd be a facinating person to study. (Sorry, psychology is a passion of mine.)

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Isn't that what you're doing now anyway? :)

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P.S. to the comment I made on this post, I meant "see" as in have a better picture of what you are saying, and have a regular time to just pick at things, and go over them with you, and discover as much as I can about this mysterious person that seems to unlike any one I've known. You are living only one of many possibilites, and I always did like to keep an open mind to any and all possibilies so as to help me help others. I'm sure I'm bound to meet young ones that are in a similar trade as you, though it's illeagal here. To know as much about you as I can, will give me access to different ideas on how to help them/reach them/speak to them/advise them and so on.

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Originally Posted by Meow420

Ah hi, um Im really sorry that i am guilty of doing these things, but in my defense, i didn't know that that was the rules on this site. Really sorry.. Will try not to let it happen again

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All the site rules are under the 'Help' section at the top of every page...

Ask Me Help Desk - FAQ

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Originally Posted by Nestorian

Ah, very well. So, this other man you are in a relationship with... (If you don't mind my asking?) .

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The questions you asked about my boyfriend can all be answered in that thread (check it out! I hate repeating myself :) if the answer isn't there to what you want to know let me know and I will tell you )

My drug extent is alcohol and weed mostly, but I have taken a few exctasy pills, had a few lines of coke.. but never a habit of anything except weed. And I have never worked as a sex worker under the influence of any drug, except perhapa a wine at dinner..

Im glad you find me interesting, I was sure I would have bored people to death :)