Yeah... the 3 week mark was AWFUL. I was bawling because I was craving so badly. Hold strong! You can do it!

In other news, I didn't get the internal job I applied for. Kind of a bummer on a Friday morning, with the whole day to get through before I can go home and be mad/upset.

Oh Synnen I didn't know you had put in for it? Crap. Boy I know that feeling. One time I put in for an internal job 5 different times and other people got the nod. It really hurts your feelings. But I didn't give up nor did I let their not picking me, bring me down, I just kept at it and finally got it the 6th time.

But for now, I know it really stinks. Did you go and ask why. Even just to make them squirm... hee hee.

The last time I didn't get it, I wasn't so much hurt as I was mad. I went to the very top, put on the professional face, and said, where was I lacking and what areas can I improve in order to be selected. He went on this whole speal about why the candidate was picked. I said I am very happy for so and so (grrrrr), but I really would like to know
What I can do to improve. Do you know what he said... he said... Life is not fair. Boy I was hot with that answer. But, I did finally get it the next time.

So Keep your head up Synnen!!

/shrug

It's a small company. That position isn't going to be open again unless the person they chose quits. It's a new position entirely, which is about the only way to move in the company.

I've just dusted off my resume and I'm starting to look elsewhere.

Just... why tell you first thing in the morning? That's just mean, if you ask me.

And they always do it on a Friday. Just try and outwardly accept it with grace and inside
Well, you know :).

This may be the inspiration you needed to see what's out there.

Sorry Synnen, it stinks. Put extra bubbles in your bubble bath :)

Many hugs (... )

Oh, I don't GET bubble baths this weekend.

My parents are moving, my mom is panicking, so I'm making the 5 hour drive tonight to see what I can do to help her this weekend. Which means I'll have to deal with my sister (that's a long story, but suffice to say my sister is a conniving b!tch) being horrible, my mom crying, my dad mad because my mom is crying, and not even having the chance to be upset about this until probably Sunday night.

/sigh... ever notice that it all always hits at once?

PS--Thanks for the hugs!

Oh synnen, I'm sorry. Hey, don't focus on your sister. Tune her out!! Just your parents.
You are right. It always always comes like a flood. My Dad and My Father-in-law died a week a part. That was a blast!! I told my husband, I think God does that as if there is so much going on, our brains can't really focus on one thing and get swept up under it.
This way we are in one big huge swirl and will end up just breezing threw it.

Much love,

Oh goodness... how horrible for you!

The very worst part of all of this is that right now, our computer system is down, so I can't even just concentrate on work to get through the day, because I don't HAVE any work without the system.

Grrrr.

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Oh synnen, I'm sorry. Hey, don't focus on your sister. Tune her out!!! Just your parents.
You are right. It always always comes like a flood. My Dad and My Father-in-law died a week a part. That was a blast !!! I told my husband, I think God does that as if there is so much going on, our brains can't really focus on one thing and get swept up under it.
This way we are in one big huge swirl and will end up just breezing threw it.

Much love,

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The more I learn the more I think we are some kind of weird twin, my dad died then two weeks later my mum's mum died too hugs to you hunny xxx

Synn go get yourself another job one where you don't have arse hole co-workers and stay strong we love you xx

How did it go with the doctor and the quitting smoking lady, Laura? Did I miss that answer somewhere?

And how is our little madam today?

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Oh, I don't GET bubble baths this weekend.

My parents are moving, my mom is panicking, so I'm making the 5 hour drive tonight to see what I can do to help her this weekend. Which means I'll have to deal with my sister (that's a long story, but suffice to say my sister is a conniving b!tch) being horrible, my mom crying, my dad mad because my mom is crying, and not even having the chance to be upset about this until probably Sunday night.

/sigh...ever notice that it all always hits at once?

PS--Thanks for the hugs!

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Hugs to everyone.

Find the shelter within the storm instead of seeking freedom from the storm (not that you were LOL). Your peaceful presence will make more solid effect than you might ever realise. Breathe and release the tension, a deep breath too... as often as necessary. Like a mini-meditation.

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How did it go with the doctor and the quitting smoking lady, Laura? Did I miss that answer somewhere?

and how is our little madam today?

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LOL best not to ask at the moment...

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The more i learn the more i think we are some kind of weird twin, my dad died then two weeks later my mum's mum died too hugs to you hunny xxx

Synn go get yourself another job one where you dont have arse hole co-workers and stay strong we love ya xx

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Oh Laura, my goodness. When that happens, don't you feel like you are in the land of bizarre!!

I remember hubby sitting in the family room while we were in between funeral services, and for some reason I went to the living room and looked out the window. Guess what, one of the windows was cracked right down the window.

I went to hubby and I said, honey, sometimes God gives us some other things to think about when we are going through tough times...

Really what can you do at that point but throw your hands in there air.

Ohhhhhh I so want to be your twin... so so so so. :):):). I'll be weird I don't care :):). Hee hee

Oh but no twin of mine is going to smoke... just a little poke. :)

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Oh goodness....how horrible for you!

The very worst part of all of this is that right now, our computer system is down, so I can't even just concentrate on work to get through the day, because I don't HAVE any work without the system.

Grrrr.

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That drives me nuts when the computer goes down. Work just stops! We are in serious dodo sometimes with everything being computerized.

That's okay just make funny faces behind the back of the person who took your job :p

She's a nice girl, I have no hard feelings.

I'm just a little disappointed, you know?

Good for you Synnen. That's the best way to be. Honest. I was just playing.

Yeh, I know. Okay, who can we make funny faces at... hee hee.. :p

The way Laura is talking, we all need to make funny faces at Madame Millie!

He hee hee... okie dokie...

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Oh, that makes me think of the "Little Miss" and Little Mister" books!

I loved those books!

Oh syn, I know how you feel. I remember going for a job I really wanted. And was turned down for someone else. I felt so down on myself but I kept thinking that I'm still working and there was always next time.

I remember losing my grandmothers within months of each other. My maternal grandmother's loss hit me hardest because she raised me for the first three years of my life. Losing her waslike losing my mother. So I can totally relate to anyone whose dealing with a loss. I also believe that god only gives us what he feels we can handle. It only makes us stronger

This day is never going to end.

The last hour has taken longer than the month of January took. Even with wanting a cigarette in January.

I wonder if I would get disinherited if I decided not to go this weekend?