So you think running away will make it easier?

Yes, that's how 15 year olds think. They don't think about the consequences to their actions.

How will your dad feel when you run away. What will happen to you when he finds you AND finds out you are on drugs?

Yeah it will be easier than facing him trust me all I'm thinking about is the consequences. He won't find me or find out about the drugs my friends will let me stay at their place. If he finds me I don't want to think about what would happen. I should just take all my pills and just go to sleep but I'm to scared to do that but he scares me as well

He will find you. I promise you that. If your friend's parents let you stay there, they will be breaking the law and he will have them arrested.

So, you want to get other people in trouble too?

I don't him to find me what makes you think he would.I don't want to get anyone in trouble. Ill just forget about it you really don't know my dad hrs a harsh person

How do I know he will find you? I'm a parent. I know how parents think.

Considering what you are going through maybe he needs to be harsh on you. It seems you get away with a lot right now. My children would never be on drugs. I would notice it immediately.

Maybe I do deserve what he's going to do. I don't see how I am getting away with heaps so I take a few pills its not like I'm hurting any one don't know how he would even notice not like I act any different. It's not like I want to do it anymore but I'm confused.

It's not like you are hurting anyone? You are hurting yourself. How many people will be hurt when you die because of this?

I know you don't want to do it anymore, but you won't take anyone's advice. I don't know what to say anymore.

This has gone on for 5 pages. You either get help or you stay addicted. It is your choice. I've tried to help, but you have excuses for everything. I wish you well. I'm done trying to help.

Your right guess I just need to grow some and face me dad every other thing I think of just doesn't seem like it will work out. I got myself here I suppose I'll just have to face it now I don't want to die I want to live me life and I'm sick of getting used just so I can get high. What's the worst that can happen nothing worse than he's done before and I took that so your right I need help. Thanks for talking with me. Guess I should just get this over with

If you are taking a substance to escape, feel better, get rid of the pain and are scared to stop - that is addiction. A person who is addicted generally can convince them self that they can stop on their own, or cut down or change the scenery and that will change the addiction.

Changing how you think, act, react and deal with life, both daily and long term is something that others who have been through the same struggles can be immensely helpful with.

Rehab isn't just about getting clean, it is about learning how you are not alone. Others have been through the same, worse and not as bad - yet, but you will have some very similar stories. You are young and have a chance to not ruin your life over what has started.

It sounds like you feel very alone and like no one understands. There are people who understand and can help you get through, especially emotionally and mentally. After the physical effects wear off, you will need a support system. If that is not your parents, then rehab and 12 programs can offer that.

Usually, running away will only add to the problems and increase the chances of continuing to use. I hope you seek and find the help and support it sounds like you desperately need.

Well I did it I told him well I txt him a very long message thought it might be easier. Don't know how he feels he rang like 9 times but I was to scared to pick up phone he messages me told me to stay in the house he is on his way home now. He's so totally going to go off I know don't blame him I suppose I better hide my stuff so I can get rid of it later if he found it in the house my god then I would be dead. I guess that's one part over I told him now I get to face him he should be here in 10 minutes

Oxys are opiates... heroine. Is an opiate.. . you should listen to the advice you're getting your parents actually want the best for you and love you very much.. . sounds like they're just caught up in their own crap... but if you ask for help it'd be better because they will find out hopefully before you kill yourself.. . find it in your heart to lover yourself enough to reach out

I knew he was going to lose it can't believe he slapped me god I hate him supposed I deserved it though he's totally destroyed my room looking for drugs think I made it worse hiding me pills he found them and went totally ballistic reckons he's going to call the police because I won't tell him who I got them from I ain't no lagger. He can call the cops if he really wants to get his own daughter charged a hole. Don't know what's going on now kind of just tuned him out my ear was still ringing from him and all that yelling made it worse. I feel like crap though cant sleep and I hate being stuck in me room feel like jumping out me window and going for a walk but I'm to scared if he caught me. Don't know what to do now what if he does call the cops would I be charged?

You should be proud that you owned up to your wrong doings but why did you hide the pills instead of flushing them... do you realize you have to stay away from anything associated with your addiction even friends or so called friends. Sorry when your dad doesn't know how to deal with things it's a physical punishment but hopefully if you really do get help and stick with sobriety... your relationship will improve.. . it's not all your parents fault... I'll pray for you

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I knew he was going to lose it can't believe he slapped me god I hate him supposed I deserved it though he's totally destroyed my room looking for drugs think I made it worse hiding me pills he found them and went totally ballistic reckons he's going to call the police because I won't tell him who I got them from I ain't no lagger. He can call the cops if he really wants to get his own daughter charged a hole. Don't know what's going on now kind of just tuned him out my ear was still ringing from him and all that yelling made it worse. I feel like crap though cant sleep and I hate being stuck in me room feel like jumping out me window and going for a walk but I'm to scared if he caught me. Don't know what to do now what if he does call the cops would I be charged?

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I'm calling you out as a liar and a troll. Why? Because you told us he already called the police.

Its not easy remembering the order of your lies, is it?

I'm done here. I've wasted too much time on you.

Your dad may be crude, and ill informed, and given you hell so far, and it's a real rocky start to things getting better (I hope) but getting proper help, guidance and support to get off the dope, AND STAYING OFF, is well worth it.

I commend your courage (or desperation, doesn't matter) for reaching out, as doing the right thing is seldom, almost NEVER easy. Hang in there kid, and get with the program of LIFE, because it may get worse before it gets better.

You can get through this, and believe me when I say, MANY have, and if you hang in there and get with the program, you will look back and say this was the best day of your life because you actually confronted your addiction, and did something positive for yourself.

All you have to do is listen, and do as you are told. I know that's NOT easy either.

I didn't say me dad already rang the police I said he was going to call them if I didn't tell him if I didn't tell him who I got my pills from. He got angry with me for not telling him and just took me to the police station. I then had to make a choice of what I wanted to do if I was going to tell them who I hot the stuff from or if I was going to be charged with possession. If you think I'm lying that's fine I didn't ask anyone to believe me anyway just wanted some advice so thanks even if I don't seem like I didn't appreciate it I have

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I do care and I did tell the police everything who knows what's going to happen to them now.I really feel like a total lagger. A disappointment lo my parents and the worst friend ever. But ha positive side at least I can't be blamed for anyone dying or getting addicted to drugs right. I feel so guilty I should have made better choices never mind though. Now just to get this out of my system so my dad will let me out the house.

Talk about a reality check bam I get it I told the police

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So, your dad did or did not take you to the police? Which is it?

When I told me dad about the drugs he asked me who gave them to me I refused to tell him he threatened to call the police I still wouldn't tell him so he took me to the police station with the pills he found the police lady spoke to me and told me if I didn't tell them who was my supplier that I would be charged possession. I was aloud home after and told I had 2 day to either tell them or I would be charged I made the choice to tell the police everything so my dad took me back and I made a statement so I didn't get charged but still have to do some drug awareness classes. If you think I'm lying fine I get it it's the Internet. I only came on here to ask for some advice seeing as I don't have anybody else to ask

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I didn't say me dad already rang the police I said he was going to call them if I didn't tell him if I didn't tell him who I got my pills from.

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I did tell the police everything

Talk about a reality check bam I get it I told the police

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Seriously I said me dad reckoned he was going to call the police if I didn't tell him who I got the pills from that's what I wrote, I wouldn't tell my dad where I got the pills from because I thought he was bluffing. I suppose he got pissed at me for not telling him so he took me into the police station. After I went to the police station I asked my next question about what I should do and then after all the advice I got I decided to tell the police everything so me dad took me back to the police station. God I'm not friggin lying but whatever

I think the discrepancy may be in the timing of the posts. When timestamps are about 20-24 hours apart it is easy to misread them. It looks like the one with dad threatening to call the police was from Nov. 5th (USA) and the posts about telling the police are from Nov. 6th (USA).

Have you talked to your dad about getting help? While you are online have looked up organizations that can help you stay clean?

dad hasn't really said too much to me except that I have to stay in my room and not come out unless he says so. I haven't looked up anything on the net to be honest I don't really want to go to rehab or anything Im ordered to do some drug awareness corse by the police if I don't complete that then I can still be charged and I have to have random drug tests for 6 months. So that's enough I'm not going to take anymore pills anyway.

I just hope you save yourself from the addiction(s) sorry that you didn't have anyone to talk to hopefully you do now... your parents

Are there any more pills in your room or hidden somewhere nearby?

Yes I still have some hidden in the house but I can't get rid of them I'm not aloud out of me room. I don't want to get caught with them but I don't want me dad to find them either cause I lied to him when he found the other pills and said that was it should have just gave the others to him but I panicked

Now what? You're going to get them somehow and take them? Don't flush them. Bad for the water supply. Can you give them directly to the police, like you found more? I'm scared you're going to take them and make this worse for yourself.

I really can't be bothered I have no energy to worry about the other pills I can't get them I'm stuck in me room. Definitely wouldn't take them to the police I'd be in serious trouble theirs to many of them ill just get rid of them later. I'm definitely not going to take them anyway I've come this far don't want to go back

The right thing to do is come completely clean. Its bad enough to be isolated at this time and left to your own stinking thinking without the proper guidance, but even worse to not come completely clean to start fresh. Such a halfway measure will come back to bite you, and while I understand you are afraid of even more stuff coming down on you, it will be far worse when your deception come to light.

You really do need a trusted adult who knows what they are doing and I encourage you if you are afraid of the cop, to confide in your drug awareness counsellor to remedy this situation with the additional pill. Of course you can't see the dangers of still having a stash, (a substantial one?) and risking the cops thinking you are a seller, because all those people you turned in will surely tell them how much and how long they have been supplying you to save their own skins.

You don't know how many times I have seen this happen, or how many time I have seen people fresh from being caught, or beaten up by their addiction, and want to clean up, be tempted yet again to use just a little bit, because they have survived the initial storm and feel better.

If you are serious about changing your life, then don't expect good results to come from half stepping and stinking thinking. Let me be clear. The same things that got you in this mess is still there, waiting bite you in the butt really hard. I wish you had a trusted KNOWLEDGEABLE adult for guidance and support. That goes for your dad too!

http://www.na.org/

I can't get to the pills without someone seeing me I've hide them in the kitchen under the sink there is no possible way for me to get them without being caught so I'm not worried about trying to take them. I understand what you are saying about them still being there though. Its not an issue for me at the moment. I suppose I could wait until they are asleep and then get rid of them but I don't know if that's such a good idea I'd hate to get caught think ill just leave it for now

I could tell me dad but if he took me to the police station I'd be in big trouble then.

How long has it been now since you took any pills? How are you feeling (physically)?

It's been three days since I've taken any pills I'm so tried but haven't had any sleep well maybe a few hours sleep. My tummy aches all the time I feel like I'm going to chuck but can't and sweating heaps I swear sometimes it feels like me heart is going to jump out of me chest. I wish I could get out of this room I need to get some air I feel so closed in. But I shouldn't complain me own fault consequences for my action and all that stuff

Withdrawal Symptoms for Drug and Alcohol Addiction: Physical, Emotional

The Symptoms of Addiction Withdrawal - Different Drugs, Different Dangers

Yep your consequence are coming down all right.

Withdrawal - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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That was very vague didn't really give much info so here goes I take pills mostly pain pills sometimes other stuff what ever I can get really I like the feeling I get when I'm on them don't need to worry about anything else. I smoke pot sometimes, I drink and smoke. I want to stop all of it but its hard. I feel so horrible when I'm not on the pills not even the pot makes me feel better. I could easily give up some things but not others I don't know how to. I don't want to tell me parents they are not together and they don't need anymore crap from me. Help what do I do

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Also don't do nothing stupied

Trust me I won't be doing anything stupid I just wish I was dead right now would be less painful. Yep my consequences are definitely coming down and if they go away I promise I will never ever be so dumb again I just need to do something to keep me mind occupied stop thinking blah

Study the links I gave you, when your brain can think, it's the start of learning. Cold turkey is no fun so good luck.

Stay off the pity pot!!!!