One other suggestion for you is to PLEASE get yourself in drug rehab.. also get into a support group where you can relate with others going through this.
We all say " I can be strong enough to stop doing whatever" but at times not everyone can be and stay that strong.
I do hope the best for you, but please go to rehab
OOPS this was dated back in nov.. BUT THE ADVICE STILL STANDS FOR ANYONE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING Similar