Can I just say my problems. And get honest answers, without judgement. Please don't come on here and tell me "not to do it". "Love your skin". Because your waisting your time. I was born with very fair skin, unfortunately since I grew up in Africa. Long days sun bathing out on the beach caused really bad sun damage and major discoloration. First, I'm schedualing chemical peels. To smooth out any bump and have healthy skin before I begin the depig process. Then I plan to use monobenzone. I know I'll turn white. And my facial complexion will support that color beautifully, since I was naturally very white. So that's it, that's my goal. To get my white skin back. Now It's a very mentaly aching journey doubts, but I know the big part is ahead. Another problem is trying to find a reputable source to get my monobenzone. I've heard of Anil. I've heard positive things to, Should I or should I not order from him? I have many postivies in my life, but my skin is always the first thing I see before I sleep and before I wake. I don't think I could go on without it being fixed.