[HurtGirl8]

I have the same problem exactly, my boyfriend is wonderful and so in love with me but there has been times where I would have to beg him to have sex with me ad he wouldn't because he was tired, so I would leave the bedroom feeling so ugly, disgusted by him and myself and feel like I was unfufilling for him when in reality I would try anything for him. So I'd cry ad cry ad cry ad I brought it up to him and he would say that he would try harder but never did and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope until last weekend I made out with another guy when he left the party, I wanted him to leave all he ever did at the parties was get drunk and embaress me.But I told him about it and now he hasn't spoken to me for 2 days, it just felt so good to have somebody think I was sexy again, when me and him hang out at his house all he does is stare into the TV, doesn't touch me or anything. I am very depressed now because I lost everything, I don't know what to do... I tried so hard to look good for him and be sweet always bringing him presents and sushi, working out all the time eating only health food, doing my hair and makeup... I feel so lonely in a way I love him for him but some of the things he does or doesn't do drives me insane, so insane I hurt him really bad... I need advice..

[Synnen]

MOved from a piggyback on another thread.

How old are you?

[CravenMorhead]

MOved from a piggyback on another thread.

How old are you?

She's 19. Her boyfriend is 28. From a previous thread.

Actually the entire gambit above is posted in another thread.

[JudyKayTee]

When you say "hurt him really bad" are you talking about physical violence?

[HurtGirl8]

Goodness no I would never be physically abusive but you see emotionally I know he is hurting.. I have never done anything like this before but I feel as though when someone actually showed me that they thought I was sexy rather than telling me to be quiet so they could watch TV, I couldn't help myself it was only a kiss but I am deeply troubled.

[JudyKayTee]

I would be trouble, too, on either end of this - troubled that I hurt someone this way (and this is a betrayal of trust) or troubled that I was hurt this way. In this case I don't know if confession is good for the soul. Sometimes it's better to just keep things to yourself, learn, move on. It's too late for that now, of course, and I don't advocate lying.

I can see why your boyfriend is upset and if you needed to go to a third party to let you know you're attractive or interesting or sexy instead of talking to your boyfriend there are other problems in this relationship.

[HurtGirl8]

Yeah I don't know if it was really the verbal approval of sexy rather than the physical aspects.Smiling, laughing with me, just the body language aspect that my relationship lacks.