I have the same problem exactly, my boyfriend is wonderful and so in love with me but there has been times where I would have to beg him to have sex with me ad he wouldn't because he was tired, so I would leave the bedroom feeling so ugly, disgusted by him and myself and feel like I was unfufilling for him when in reality I would try anything for him. So I'd cry ad cry ad cry ad I brought it up to him and he would say that he would try harder but never did and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope until last weekend I made out with another guy when he left the party, I wanted him to leave all he ever did at the parties was get drunk and embaress me.But I told him about it and now he hasn't spoken to me for 2 days, it just felt so good to have somebody think I was sexy again, when me and him hang out at his house all he does is stare into the TV, doesn't touch me or anything. I am very depressed now because I lost everything, I don't know what to do... I tried so hard to look good for him and be sweet always bringing him presents and sushi, working out all the time eating only health food, doing my hair and makeup... I feel so lonely in a way I love him for him but some of the things he does or doesn't do drives me insane, so insane I hurt him really bad... I need advice..