Hi Guys I am a first time poster :>) but not a noob lol
Here is the story me and my girlfriend were together for almost 2 years well as soon as we got 2 gether my life turned upside down! LEt me give some background Me and this girl were friends for about a year before we even dated. I had been single for almost 3 years prior after another bad breakup and decided to be single and mingle for a while. So after a year of phone chats and long convos we decided to give it a try. We are 2 gether and the good times were very special the bad times were pretty rough. I lost 2 friends One killed the other. Then several months ago my brother passed away. In between we moved in together for about 2 months and it was back and forth but I believe mostly because I was in such a bad emotional place. Anyway we broke up in June cause she wanted "SPACE" problem is when she asked for this space she didn't take it. She would say hey I need space then we would talk every day we would message all day long and because I am so "SMART" I would tell her that it was obvious she didn't really want the space. So last month my brother passed away he was living with me and she knew him also he was sick and she basically left me hangin IMO she didn't come to my house for 3 days after he passed. Her explanation was that she thought my family would be there and that she wasn't comfortable being in a house where someone passed away. After that I held the anger in for a couple weeks and then 1 dayI snapped went ballistic broke in my house etc.. She wasn't there she was on the phone I obviously had allot of pinned up anger. So... after that I decided that I needed to just leave her alone. So I did . After a couple weeks and a couple therapy sessions I decided that I had made a huge mistake. I didn't realize how bad my anger was. So I called her to appologize for my anger and taking it out on her. She stated there was no need to appologize but she wants it to stay as it is for now. Everything she said that day was filled with uncertainty and for now this and for now that. I haven't heard from her in 4 weeks. I miss her terribly but I don't want half way I feel she is settle down material but obviously it has to be mutual. Also I am a single parent and her and my daughter were very close. Ever since me and her stopped speaking her and my daughter stopped speaking. I have gotten tons of advice but I still wanted to post this here because I saw allot of helpful material. Just looking for tips on getting past this situation and what should I do if she does call etc..
I do believe she is very special and my gut tells me she is the 1 which is why I don't bother or call her haven't spoken to her like I said its been about 4 weeks since we last spoke and we have spoken once in the last 6 weeks for me to appologize. Thanks for your help guys!