I have been in a relationship with a girl for about two years. We have talked about marriage in the next few years and I am really pretty excited to get married. I own a business and work about 70 hours a week and am constantly stressed. I really love my girlfriend a lot and we have so much in common. She is absolutely crazy about me and would do about anything for me. She left to study abroad in Europe. She e-mails me about every day telling me about what is going on over there. For some wired reason I wish she would cheat on me while she is there in Europe. I don't know why, but for some reason I want her to. What is wrong with me?!

Do you secretly want the relationship to be over, and are looking for a reason to break it off?

No, That's what's so weird. I want to be with her and it would kill me if she left me. But for some reason I want to find out she cheated on me even though I know she never would.

Is that perhaps something that excites you? Like maybe a threesome or a swinging?

Do you feel because your apart, you're a little upset that your not there for her sexually.

Have any of your girlfriends in the past cheated on you?

Yes, I did have my last girlfriend cheat on me. It really heart broke me

No, I'm not upset with myself for not being there for sex. I guess a threesome is something I have never done and always kind of wanted to, but would be really upset if someone else had sex with her.

Have you perhaps cheated on her and maybe this is why you want her to do it. If you want to have a three some ask her but don't be surprised if you get a big clump of spit in your face... lol

Have you been faithful to her while she has been gone? Meaning, do you want her to cheat on you because you feel guilty?

So if your going be upset if she have sex with someone then you don't want her to cheat but suspect she might because of your ex cheatingp

No, I don't want a threesome. And I have been faithful to her. I don't get it, I just want her to come back and I want to figure out that she has cheated on me. I kind of hold a grudge against her because she had been with about 7 guys before me and it always hurt my feelings. But she has been faithful for the whole time we have been dating. I guess I just want to feel the hurt of her cheating on me and know all of the details to hurt me more. Why do I want that?

I guess a threesome is something I have never done and always kind of wanted to.

No, I don't want a threesome.

Which one is it? You seem to be a very cofused person. I think there is something that you are not telling us...

Sorry. I mean I think a threesome is interesting, but I would never do it.

Your mainly disappointed that she had mor sexual partners then you and feel she can't go without sex. This whole being apart thing is killing because you're a little insecure.

If there is something else to this story that you aren't telling us, we need to know in order to help you.

There's a lot missing from this story and we learned more as the question pop up.

Really, I believe I have told you everything. I did mention that my last girl friend of a little over two years ago cheated on me. And I feel like I want her to so I can be hurt. This whole thing makes no sense to me. I almost guess maby I want her to cheat so she can feel guilty and hurt for being with so many guys, but that just doesn't seem correct.

I don't get why you want your current girlfriend to feel guilty?

I don't think I do. I'm trying to come up with a answer, but am really clueless. That is the best thing I have been able to come up with.