What should I do about my baby momma?
I have known my baby's mom since 2007. We had a baby girl in late 2009. I got her tested to make sure even though I knew it was mine because the army made me. Because I joined the army we have been having a really difficult time. She broke up with me when I joined. She got pregnant after I graduated basic. And because she left me I made really bad decisions. I ended up calling her every name in the book. I slept with other women and everything. But here's the kicker. I love her. I can't get over her. Believe me I tried. I even broke complete contact for like 3 months. Except I paid my child support. She also has been with other people. And about a week ago we started talking again. All of a sudden we are the best of friends. Neither of us claim to want one another. Both of admit we care. But so to actions we both have done. Mainly mine. It just doesn't seem feasible. I really love her.
But I'm still in the army for another 3 months before my four years are up. And the life of an infantryman makes relationships very difficult. She would take me back I know if I was home. I only know this because she told me that the other three people she has ever been with can't get her off, only I can. And to be honest it's the same for me. We both have to have feelings for some one for that to happen. Now another reason she claims it won't work is because I tend to stereotype all Muslims. I hate them all and I would gladly destroy them all. If you're Muslim, I wouldn't comment on this because I hate you all. Look she doesn't like that fact about me. And neither do I. But I lose a lot of good friends to those *******s and can't help how I feel. She is afraid on going to wig out on people. I did threaten to kill the people she slept with but god knows I really won't because I can't lose my little girl. I Love that baby too much.
The mom claims I don't though because I'm never home. I don't think she quite understands that the army just isn't going to let me go home whenever I want. But point is I realize I'm out in 3 months. But time is running out. How do I get her back before I'm out? I don't want to change who I am for just this girl but then again this is a girl I legitimately love and because of all the mistakes I have made I'm fearing the worst here. I used to go to her about all my problems and if was the same for her. And as I said we started talking and went right back to being best friends, problem being, I want it all or nothing. I can't be friends. It's way to damn painful. Any advice?