I am back again. My now ex has finished with me. She is 20 I am 28. The pain I feel is extreme. I have not slept for 3 nights, cannot eat, destroyed my apartment in rage. We met over a year ago as friends then became more 8 months ago.
The argument started Sunday night when she returned from the army reserves. She went on about joining the full army which we have argued about before. I said I don't think a relationship would work. (Although apparently according to a friend who text her it was just a test to see how I would react). I explained to her today that it's a big thing to accept but I love her so much and I want to support her (thought that didn't make any difference) We made up. She does have big mood swings and perhaps over reacts in a nasty way to things.
The next day we were in love once more. Cuddling and planning this weekend. She said how much she loved me. Then she started looking through my internet history whilst I was out of the room. Found some porn (which she also looked at) I didn't want her looking through it so quickly shut down the PC. She went nuts, and stormed out the apartment. I tried to chase her down but she just hit me and pushed me away.
I tried to sort it via text and phone (maybe I chased too much here) she was so cold and her attitude was one of hate. She came over this evening to get her stuff, chucked her apartment keys at me. She laughed at me as I cried. Called me pathetic. I do not understand how she could be so cold toward me after previously being so in love with me. How can feelings just switch in one day? As she left I believe she had a man texting her (though for the life of me during our time together she has never msged anyone so maybe this is her way of getting over me).
I text her last night to tell her how I thought she was towards me. Cold/nasty and that I will never understand her actions. That I love her and she knows where I am if she wants to talk.
I really love this girl and don't want to let her go. I want her back in my arms. Just not sure how to go about it. I don' want to chuck away a good thing. I am away for 3 days and I want to contact her again... I don't want to loose her in my life. My best friend and partner. I just don't know how to bypass the fact she supposedy hates me and never wants to see me again.